I've decided to come back, now I have slept on it.
I've calmed down now.
I know I am not the only neurodivergent here. I just obviously haven't properly explained the difficulties I have since no neurodivergent is the same in that respect.
I got too carried away with the threads I have recently started. I have seen them work on other forums so I thought they were worth a try here. I tend to get carried away in general when I am in my element, especially on here, since I have followed Motorsport (mainly F1 and the BTCC) since 1993.
I am better at explaining things when I am not asked to because it puts me on the spot when I am. That makes it harder for me to find the right words, even when I know perfectly well what I am trying to say. That also makes me feel overstimulated and therefore, uncomfortable and liable to have a meltdown.
I never actually intended to leave and never come back but daan's last comment touched one nerve too many when I was already on edge.
I didn't mean to frustrate Jimlaad43 but I did feel the responses I was getting came across as rude and uncalled for now and again and I didn't immediately understand the posts in question. I obviously didn't help the situation by reacting with the Poo emoji. I agree that if people don't like something then they should explain it, rather than just using things like the Poo emoji, though sometimes they need time to think about how they are going to provide an explanation, I certainly do more often than not.
I didn't understand exactly what the problem was with what I was doing and trying to do so only overstimulated me and caused me to have a meltdown.
I just wish to be accepted because I have been through so many instances of not being accepted because of people not understanding me or just not bothering to because of my being a neurodivergent. This has caused me to grow up with a distrust of neurotypicals.
I am obsessed with the failures thread because I grew up fascinated with the now-defunct F1 Rejects site.
I am sorry for all the trouble I've caused recently and in the past. I didn't mean to be such a pest to everyone. It is nice to know that I am actually adding something to this forum. I have often felt I wasn't really contributing anything and felt like I shouldn't really be here and the recent trouble only confirmed that in my mind so I felt like I should leave and never come back. I often feel like I am just a thorn in everyone's side.
I also don't immediately provide an explanation because I was always taught that when I am asked a question, it requires an answer, and if I didn't answer right away, I was proverbially pushed until I gave one.
Also, when it comes providing an explanation, that comes across as having to dig deeper for further information and more information can lead to things getting more complicated and if my brain takes on too much information at once (i.e. taking on information quicker than it can process it) it becomes overstimulated and causes me headaches, at worst, driving me to depression and/or frustration. I struggled in school and college because of this. I will admit to have been more uncomfortable about providing an explanation in general than usual in recent times as I also have an account with TV Tropes under the username Nononsensecapeesh (Yes, Jimlaad43, the same NNC from the Robot Wars Wiki. There I said it.) and I got suspended from that site earlier this year because of not providing enough explanation for the edits I was making and trying to get the suspension overturned was like pulling teeth!
The things I put in threads like this one and the "Failures" thread. I put them here more to see what you guys think rather than what I think, because more often than not, I am sure what I think. I tend to have a better idea of where I stand on things, once have had time to think about it.
That piece I put in the "Failures" thread about the autonomous racing series in Abu Dhabi. I noticed it being referred to as a "failure". At this point, it was easy for me to take that literally because that is a trait of my Autism, but I thought "There's a thread covering "failures" on GTPlanet, I'll show it to them and let them be the judge of this." I now know that the series simply got off to a bad start. I am certainly not one of those "confused" people whom Jimlaad43 refers to (or at least I try not to be) but it is difficult not to be such a person when you have a disability that causes you to be literal-minded.
My perception of how these threads work may also be different how they were intended to work.
Take the Top Gear BMW for instance, nothing unusual about it when it comes to being a racing car, but it would be hard for some people to believe it started off as a four-year-old repmobile and got turned into an endurance racecar in 10 days, regardless of who were the ones to do it. That's where I was coming from (or, at least trying to).
The double-posting thing, that I had the hardest time understanding because I have done it on other forums and they tend be less stringent on the matter. I got the part not doing a new post so soon after my previous one (or, at least, I tried to), so I tried to get into the habit of waiting until the next day before doing a new post. For some reason, I thought I should only add to an existing post if the information I am adding is relevant to it, that was a cock-up on my part but I have already apologised for all the trouble this has caused.
I would not be on this forum at all or other forums if not for the Motorsport aspect because I have never been comfortable in crowds and to me, forums constitute crowds, online crowds but crowds nonetheless, which is why I tend to steer clear of the more popular threads, like those covering upcoming F1 races for instance.
I am inexplicably obsessed with ending my sessions on here (and other forums) with an even number of edits! That, I definitely can't explain, other than it being a trait of my Autism. Even I find it annoying sometimes!
Oh, I am prone to unpredictability and randomness in the way I conduct myself but I don't mean to put people off as a result.
Right, I think have covered everything, unless anyone thinks otherwise.
Back on subject:
Earlier in the thread, the unraced nose-winged Arrows from Monaco 2001 was mentioned.
Here's the unraced boomerang-winged Tyrrell from 1983.
"Maurice Philippe had an idea in mind about how to give the 012 an aerodynamic an advantage over its competitors, realising a conventional wing could only do so much with the maximum width given by the FIA, he set out to maximise the surface area within the available space.
As he couldn’t simply make the wing wider, he bent it into a point resembling the boomerang. In theory this was supposed to create a larger wing with more surface area, which in turn would generate more downforce without exceeding the maximum width limit. Large gurney flaps on top of the wing were intended to exploit the effect even further. He would fix the peculiar looking wing in place with large struts connecting to the sidepods, with a third example connecting to the rear differential and a smaller boomerang attaching to the rear diffuser.
Tyrrell tested the Boomerang in a short private test in England, before heading to Osterreichring (Austria) for its public test prior to the Austrian Grand Prix.
Michele Alboretto set off in his 012-01 (with Boomerang) in the first practice session. He completed a few laps with relative ease, showing the space-age wing worked at least as well as its normal winged sister.
Unfortunately a water leak ruined the session, forcing the Italian to pull into the pits. His feedback lead Philippe and Tyrrell to conclude the Boomerang wing didn’t live up to its promise, leading to Tyrrell favouring the normal wing."
I also can't believe Michael Schumacher managed to win the 1990 Macau GP with his broken rear wing trailing behind him after his collision with Mika Hakkinen.
