Hey everyone, please listen to what I have to say.
You know what, to be honest, I really don't want to exert anymore energy on the RBR TT, it's not worth putting stress on my hands and body, see my fingers and thumbs are sore from pressing the buttons so much the past week. I hope my silver time holds, 1'01.354. I was lucky and fortunate to get that far, so.
I'm jealous that I can't be better than most people on here, sigh. But, you know I'm gonna have to let that ego go. I let my personal hygiene go by wasting 80-90 hours a week on gt7 for a year and a half, and still I could not make huge amounts of progress, I need to shave and get in the shower. I may have to go back to using the ghosts, cause I have to remember a lot of things while watching a replay. Here is the real me, if most of you haven't seen.
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See my face breaking out a lot, that's what severe stress will do. I got frustrated sevreal times on the past recent 7-8 TT's and threw the controller and some of my games at the wall, thankfully nothing broke, but I have anger issues. Whenever I can't achieve or do something I throw a fit. If I can't apply and understand what advice/tips you guys give me, then I'm gonna have to give up. I don't want to but if the TT's aren't fun then I'm gonna have to find my stopping point.
See, here again I ran 294 laps at RBR and did not earn gold. Forget RA and that ****, I quit there about a week ago.
I watched Evilmuffin's, Dan's, Dolph's, crome's, and Gomario's replays and still could not duplicate what they did with the gear shifting. I stayed up for 2 days at one point to study YT videos and guides, and it still got me nowhere. I know me whining and complaining about this is not setting a good example for here, but I am frustrated, overwhelmed, stressed and agitated. I am human and I have feelings on it. Damn, I just want to throw this controller and just get a pad or wheel.
Sigh, it's so hard to stay calm in this situation, my mom complains about me not pulling my weight around the house, she does 70% of the work and I lounge around playing video games 15-20 hours a day. She said she would cut the internet off if I didn't start curbing my time which I don't think is fair either. Nothing is fair for me in this world. I'm sorry for the long replay but I have been holding it inside me the past year and I couldn't hold it anymore, I'm angry and stressed and I don't know what I could do to learn all the tricks necessary for the harder TT's.
EDIT: And sometimes I'll post stuff like I got a new PB, but no one responds or acknowledges it, they just post likes or emojis.