Sakiale
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I like reading people's life stories, so post your story.. your experiences, learnings, best and worst moments, how you got your first girlfriend, etc.
Eh, your story sounds like mine, except I've only gotten to the 8th grade part, and I have a girlfriend in 8th grade who as far as I'm aware isn't emo (no offence) or any other psychological problems, and I have ADHD. I believe I'm depressed, but no one else thinks so and I don't want to be evaluated by a psychologist. My parents are always yelling and fighting with each other and with me. They really mean well but too often they just lose it. At least once a day. Also, the worst part, my girlfriend who I really feel like I need now, having just moved to California which devastated me, is still in New York.
I got great grades in K--5 grade, but that was all under my mom's effort. For 1--5 grade I changed schools from the local school to gifted program school, which was gay because all we did was learn learn learn. We NEVER did anything fun and rarely had a field trip. PLUS our test scores were apparently lower than my school in kindergarten. More than once a month I've had to stay up to 2 or 3 am to do or redo homework until it is A level. I got max score on state reading and math tests. In 6th grade, I got to go to school in Manhattan--more than an hour away by bicycle, subway, and sometimes bus. And walking. This was the Lucy Moses School of music. The kids there were really nice. This is when I started liking rap music and rock music, and 'the hood' and 'gangsta' stuff. That is one of the things I miss about New York city, the streets and the subways... the neighborhoods... but most of all, my friends. LMS was a pretty easy school, and I was able to scrape a B average in the academic area. Also my whole grade only had 11 kids, so it was better in focusing. Everyone claims that I'm really bad at group work (my parents and psychologists), but in this year and in 7th grade, I think that I'm okay at it, as I had done 3 major projects that were best-in-class. Also there was some fiasco involving the girl I had a crush on, but that's actually pretty irrelevant. Nearing the end of the year, I am allowed to take the entrance exam for Hunter College High School, arguably the best High School in NYC, and miraculously, get in. This is due to my 5th grade test scores. Well I suppose its really not that miraculous, because I'm pretty good at tests. HCHS is 7th--12th grade, and in 7th grade I go there. It is great, and I love the school. This is also, however the year that my mom gets a job, and my dad moves to California. This is a very, very bad thing for me, because it means that I have control of all the computers in the house. Every Friday and Saturday night, and even some weekdays, I wake up at night to play Runescape, go to GTP, and watch TV or porn. (Yeah, this is the time I start watching porn.) Personally I think that its not so bad because my friends all do it, but my parents don't agree. Speaking of friends, I haven't really gotten any friends in these 8 years. They were all just people to hang out with that you forget about later, or people that don't like me.
7th grade, there is this girl in my class that I really like. She is really quiet, and I think she's cute. Over the year I become her good friend, but 3/4 through, I decide that I don't actually have a crush on her and start crushing on this prettier, Japanese girl--who of course ends up hating me. Me and the first girl still remain friends, though.
Also this year, due to my computer things and my unknown ADHD and my mom's absence from 4:30, when I get home, to 7:00, and my dad being gone, and my mom being really tired when she got home, I don't do ANY of my homework. Maybe 40% is undone. And I got mugged. There was a huge string of muggings that year, and the school's near Harlem. Personally I don't think this affected me, but I'm sure some psychologist will think differently.
Well one of my friends this year lives in SoHo. His problems are similar to mine, academically at least. We start going to Best Buy in SoHo together, to play games, after school and on half days. I also start going to a game store to play in Flushing after or before my dentist appointments. My grades are Cs, Ds, and Fs. Even in Comm. Arts and P.E., I think I got C-minuses. My parents had to meet with the asssistant principal, I have a tutor for Latin (C-)provided by the school and a tutor for math (Failing and Ds) which costs $60 (maybe more, don't remember) an hour. My mentor from one of the school clubs tutors me in math also. And I start trying to write rap songs. Well, apparently due to my grades, we decide to move to Cali, at the same time my friend is moving there. We take a cross-country road trip to get there, however my friend lives 70 miles away from us.
After I realize that L.A. is big and there is no way for me to pull the same s**t I pulled in 7th grade, and that the atmosphere could never replace NYC, I'm pretty bummed. However going to Jr. LDC 2006 summer camp helped since it was fun, and I met a girl who supposedly is my friend but hasnt emailed me for ages. I have a crush on her now, but then I realize that I still really like the first girl, from 7th grade. I get her email from an old friend. But I'm getting ahead of myself.
Anyway, I go to Chapparral middle school for 8th grade, where the kids are really mean. I suppose this is my fault; I was really pro-NY and got into fights with too many wrong people. I get really depressed, and every day, people that I don't even know come up to me and insult me, throw things at me, and make fun of me. Someone even impersonated me on AIM and got a whole lot more people pissed off. My person that I hang out with tells me that I'm 'in deep s**t... from everyone'. Yeah. True.
To boost my popularity, I start writing rap songs about New York, my mugging, etc. These are a huge success, and while life is still the same in half the time, the other half involves a lot of girls screaming and crowds of people around me. It feels good. I still write, once in a while. It's fun.
I meet this Mexican guy, Richie, who says he's a gangster. Personally I don't really believe him, but he's pretty cool. I walk and talk with him. He says I'm one of the few white kids for which he has any respect. He also writes rap songs, but most people say that mine are better. He claims to have won a lot of freestyle battles. I haven't tried any. In Hunter there was a club around it, but in L.A., Asians and white kids aren't supposed to like rap.
This is also the year I start forging signatures. Since my parents are being extra vigilant, the first time I get caught but not suspended. However...
At the end of the first sememster I move to Walnut to a real permanent house. I go to Suzanne Middle School. The kids are nicer, probably also cause I was nicer, but the school is hard. My mom requested a progress report. It shows all Cs and Ds, and panicking, I forge it. Once again I am not suspended, as they are not aware that this is the second time. Everyone does it. A few weeks pass and I'm failing Lang. Arts. My mom meets with the counselor. More than half my homework was not done. Now I'm getting Cs and Bs.
My mom is 'tipped off' to my ADHD by a page that I had done extra in science. I dont really get that, but yeah. I deny I have ADHD. Now I accept it. Psychology and hypnosis doesnt help..
I email my girl. She emails back. She is one of perhaps 2 or 3 people who actually ever answer my emails. Somehow, she becomes my girlfriend. I'm overjoyed. I still can't believe it.
I've never had the balls to actually attempt suicide, but I've planned it countless times. And run away from home at least 5 times. None for more than a day, and none overnight. As I said I don't have the balls.
However, I often serioulsly consider packing up my stuff and my clothes and biking back to New York. With my $550 Chinese New Year's money and savings, I know I could make it. Now, I'm stuck here.
I passed the application for the I.B. Program. I don't want it to end up like Hunter, with Fs and Ds and Cs, but I really fear it will. My mom wants me to either repeat 8th grade or take a break from school for a year and go pray at Buddhist temples in China to cure my ADHD. I believe in that, and would do it if I wasnt going to get laughed at for getting 'left back' or something when I came back.
I also wear black a lot but that's more cause I like it.
Also I should give you some religious background. My mom is Buddhist and I think she is really too caught up in it. She is always teaching me ancient Chinese values and stuff, which while good, I think she overdoes. She now seriously really thinks the media and games are evil, especially after the shooting at VA Tech.
The $550 new years money has since been $200 blown on games and the other $350 taken by my mom. Drake Institute is helping me and my best friend Kevin Luu recover a lot. IB program is going pretty well except for Alg. 2H.
Go.
Eh, your story sounds like mine, except I've only gotten to the 8th grade part, and I have a girlfriend in 8th grade who as far as I'm aware isn't emo (no offence) or any other psychological problems, and I have ADHD. I believe I'm depressed, but no one else thinks so and I don't want to be evaluated by a psychologist. My parents are always yelling and fighting with each other and with me. They really mean well but too often they just lose it. At least once a day. Also, the worst part, my girlfriend who I really feel like I need now, having just moved to California which devastated me, is still in New York.
I got great grades in K--5 grade, but that was all under my mom's effort. For 1--5 grade I changed schools from the local school to gifted program school, which was gay because all we did was learn learn learn. We NEVER did anything fun and rarely had a field trip. PLUS our test scores were apparently lower than my school in kindergarten. More than once a month I've had to stay up to 2 or 3 am to do or redo homework until it is A level. I got max score on state reading and math tests. In 6th grade, I got to go to school in Manhattan--more than an hour away by bicycle, subway, and sometimes bus. And walking. This was the Lucy Moses School of music. The kids there were really nice. This is when I started liking rap music and rock music, and 'the hood' and 'gangsta' stuff. That is one of the things I miss about New York city, the streets and the subways... the neighborhoods... but most of all, my friends. LMS was a pretty easy school, and I was able to scrape a B average in the academic area. Also my whole grade only had 11 kids, so it was better in focusing. Everyone claims that I'm really bad at group work (my parents and psychologists), but in this year and in 7th grade, I think that I'm okay at it, as I had done 3 major projects that were best-in-class. Also there was some fiasco involving the girl I had a crush on, but that's actually pretty irrelevant. Nearing the end of the year, I am allowed to take the entrance exam for Hunter College High School, arguably the best High School in NYC, and miraculously, get in. This is due to my 5th grade test scores. Well I suppose its really not that miraculous, because I'm pretty good at tests. HCHS is 7th--12th grade, and in 7th grade I go there. It is great, and I love the school. This is also, however the year that my mom gets a job, and my dad moves to California. This is a very, very bad thing for me, because it means that I have control of all the computers in the house. Every Friday and Saturday night, and even some weekdays, I wake up at night to play Runescape, go to GTP, and watch TV or porn. (Yeah, this is the time I start watching porn.) Personally I think that its not so bad because my friends all do it, but my parents don't agree. Speaking of friends, I haven't really gotten any friends in these 8 years. They were all just people to hang out with that you forget about later, or people that don't like me.
7th grade, there is this girl in my class that I really like. She is really quiet, and I think she's cute. Over the year I become her good friend, but 3/4 through, I decide that I don't actually have a crush on her and start crushing on this prettier, Japanese girl--who of course ends up hating me. Me and the first girl still remain friends, though.
Also this year, due to my computer things and my unknown ADHD and my mom's absence from 4:30, when I get home, to 7:00, and my dad being gone, and my mom being really tired when she got home, I don't do ANY of my homework. Maybe 40% is undone. And I got mugged. There was a huge string of muggings that year, and the school's near Harlem. Personally I don't think this affected me, but I'm sure some psychologist will think differently.
Well one of my friends this year lives in SoHo. His problems are similar to mine, academically at least. We start going to Best Buy in SoHo together, to play games, after school and on half days. I also start going to a game store to play in Flushing after or before my dentist appointments. My grades are Cs, Ds, and Fs. Even in Comm. Arts and P.E., I think I got C-minuses. My parents had to meet with the asssistant principal, I have a tutor for Latin (C-)provided by the school and a tutor for math (Failing and Ds) which costs $60 (maybe more, don't remember) an hour. My mentor from one of the school clubs tutors me in math also. And I start trying to write rap songs. Well, apparently due to my grades, we decide to move to Cali, at the same time my friend is moving there. We take a cross-country road trip to get there, however my friend lives 70 miles away from us.
After I realize that L.A. is big and there is no way for me to pull the same s**t I pulled in 7th grade, and that the atmosphere could never replace NYC, I'm pretty bummed. However going to Jr. LDC 2006 summer camp helped since it was fun, and I met a girl who supposedly is my friend but hasnt emailed me for ages. I have a crush on her now, but then I realize that I still really like the first girl, from 7th grade. I get her email from an old friend. But I'm getting ahead of myself.
Anyway, I go to Chapparral middle school for 8th grade, where the kids are really mean. I suppose this is my fault; I was really pro-NY and got into fights with too many wrong people. I get really depressed, and every day, people that I don't even know come up to me and insult me, throw things at me, and make fun of me. Someone even impersonated me on AIM and got a whole lot more people pissed off. My person that I hang out with tells me that I'm 'in deep s**t... from everyone'. Yeah. True.
To boost my popularity, I start writing rap songs about New York, my mugging, etc. These are a huge success, and while life is still the same in half the time, the other half involves a lot of girls screaming and crowds of people around me. It feels good. I still write, once in a while. It's fun.
I meet this Mexican guy, Richie, who says he's a gangster. Personally I don't really believe him, but he's pretty cool. I walk and talk with him. He says I'm one of the few white kids for which he has any respect. He also writes rap songs, but most people say that mine are better. He claims to have won a lot of freestyle battles. I haven't tried any. In Hunter there was a club around it, but in L.A., Asians and white kids aren't supposed to like rap.
This is also the year I start forging signatures. Since my parents are being extra vigilant, the first time I get caught but not suspended. However...
At the end of the first sememster I move to Walnut to a real permanent house. I go to Suzanne Middle School. The kids are nicer, probably also cause I was nicer, but the school is hard. My mom requested a progress report. It shows all Cs and Ds, and panicking, I forge it. Once again I am not suspended, as they are not aware that this is the second time. Everyone does it. A few weeks pass and I'm failing Lang. Arts. My mom meets with the counselor. More than half my homework was not done. Now I'm getting Cs and Bs.
My mom is 'tipped off' to my ADHD by a page that I had done extra in science. I dont really get that, but yeah. I deny I have ADHD. Now I accept it. Psychology and hypnosis doesnt help..
I email my girl. She emails back. She is one of perhaps 2 or 3 people who actually ever answer my emails. Somehow, she becomes my girlfriend. I'm overjoyed. I still can't believe it.
I've never had the balls to actually attempt suicide, but I've planned it countless times. And run away from home at least 5 times. None for more than a day, and none overnight. As I said I don't have the balls.
However, I often serioulsly consider packing up my stuff and my clothes and biking back to New York. With my $550 Chinese New Year's money and savings, I know I could make it. Now, I'm stuck here.
I passed the application for the I.B. Program. I don't want it to end up like Hunter, with Fs and Ds and Cs, but I really fear it will. My mom wants me to either repeat 8th grade or take a break from school for a year and go pray at Buddhist temples in China to cure my ADHD. I believe in that, and would do it if I wasnt going to get laughed at for getting 'left back' or something when I came back.
I also wear black a lot but that's more cause I like it.
Also I should give you some religious background. My mom is Buddhist and I think she is really too caught up in it. She is always teaching me ancient Chinese values and stuff, which while good, I think she overdoes. She now seriously really thinks the media and games are evil, especially after the shooting at VA Tech.
The $550 new years money has since been $200 blown on games and the other $350 taken by my mom. Drake Institute is helping me and my best friend Kevin Luu recover a lot. IB program is going pretty well except for Alg. 2H.
Go.
Sorry, I've been alive 13 years!
