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This thread was created with the intent to help air suffering and find help in the form of others.Great to hear on all counts. If you've lost the bottle in the past, don't fret over finding it again. History will repeat itself. Sooner or later the desire/need to go looking again diminishes. Even then, if it doesn't, wash/rinse/repeat. If you've taken any steps that you qualify as progress, it's never a failure, and no matter how many times you re-trace those same steps.
I think you summed up how almost every alcoholic feels exceptionally well, btw:
- "I'm so sick of punishing my future self."
5-star review and will read repeatedly as that, kind sir, struck very near and dear to me. Thank you for that.
I'm glad you're here. Humanity is a brotherhood whether you like the humans around you or not. We're not designed to do this alone so we might as well enjoy each-others company. 😁
You have perfectly justified its creation.
Cheers.
Keep posting those thoughts here, they get listened to and hopefully a helpful response. That’s why it’s here.I'm going to have to start posting my thoughts in a different thread... totes a Debbie Downer.
I don't really give a ** about my future self, I know at some point in the past my life peaked and everything between then and death is a slow depressing slide towards oblivion. Mouth cancer, throat cancer, stomach cancer, arse cancer - it's all on the cards, why the ** would I want to live through that? Just to live out my last decades in poverty and irrelevance?
If I thought there was genuine hope for a better existence why would I be drinking in the first place? I've outlived my Mum, I feel obliged to out live my Dad, after that... **** it... strap dynamite to me and trebuchet me at Parliament.
The oblivion state of mind is exactly the result of alcohol on my mental perspective. I was living that the past few months.
For cliché points, finding something to live for, and focusing efforts on that, can be a huge assist.
For what it’s worth, I’ll drop you an inbox with my number if you think it might help to reach out.