Page 4 - Downfall
Is it really a good idea to settle down? You know, a part of me isn't ready yet. A huge part of me. But here goes my stupidity again... why did I ask her, if I am not ready?!?
But if it will take too long, then we'll be too old for us to do so. There is a right age for us to settle down. But me? I am not ready...
...for now.
However, Tomoko made it a point to talk about it, little by little. So we spent that day just enjoying ourselves. We have to do it more often, especially that having children will lose a lot of quality time for ourselves and focus on how to raise them.
But... how to be a good father, if I don't have one myself???
Don't think about it first. Think about how to eat your breakfast getting cold.
Michiharu: "Oops... hehehe... I just had deep thoughts."
Koichi: "Any plans for today?"
Michiharu: "Tomoko will have a race this afternoon, so I will see her in action. For now, I can help you guys out."
Koichi: "I make it a point to often adjust your Countach's carburetors. You know, they are of high maintenance, according to my friends who own the same car. You better learn to do it yourself."
Michiharu: "I have learned a lot about mechanics over the years. And I can tune the Countach whenever needed. I give feedback to my mechanics and I observe what they're doing to my car before the race starts."
Koichi: "Just reminding you there. Oh, our little bundle of joy is growing..."
Maiko: "Ohhh yes. Well, since you're here, you decide what you want for lunch."
Michiharu: "Well, ummmmmmm....."
Suddenly, the phone rings. I reached for it.
Michiharu: "Hello?"
Gan: "Annie is on her way there to your house. She wants to speak to you, in person."
Huh? In person? What does Annie want?
Michiharu: "I'm available for the entire morning. I can wait for her. Did she even tell you why does she want to see me?"
Gan: "She went in my mansion, and just asked for your address. After that, she left without a word."
Michiharu: "Oh... okay. I see. I'll just wait."
She'd better make it quick. And why does it have to be personal? I'm not liking this...
I didn't make that bother me, as I watch the television with Auntie at the living room. Still thinking for lunch eh, Michiharu? I don't know... I'm not in the mood, really. Something is not right.
When the movie ended, I heard a doorbell. I reached for the door. As I opened it, there's Annie. Finally. What does she want?
Oddly, she actually led me to a corner. So I followed her, with the couple looking at us from the porch.
And then...
....a slap follows. A HUGE SLAP ON MY FACE. What was that for?!?
Maiko: "Oh dear!"
Koichi: "What in the world???"
Annie: "This is for ruining my life."
Michiharu: "Wait... why did you have to slap me? Did I do something wrong?!?"
Annie: "Oh please... stop making excuses! YOU ASSAULTED ME THAT NIGHT! Perhaps you're too drunk to remember it. Even so, assault is an assault."
Wait... was that the.... Oh I get it. Now I know why I woke up, looking totally messed up in that hotel room in Germany!
Annie: "I have so many things that I have yet to try, and now you ruined my chance to do so. You want to know why?
BECAUSE I'M PREGNANT, THANKS TO YOU!!!"
What?!? NO WAY?!? I MADE HER PREGNANT?!? Deeply in shock, I allowed myself to be beaten by her. Until Auntie restrained Annie and Uncle pulled me away from her.
No.... no..... IT CAN'T BE!!!
Annie: "But don't you worry. The very reason it has to be personal, because I don't want it to be scandalous. Only the four of us shall know.
Because, I want this child to grow up, knowing his father is a successful man. Don't let this ruin your life.
It's even unfair for me, but it has to be. And oh... I'm sure you don't want Tomoko to hear about this, am I right? I am fine with you settling down with her...
...but then, do your part as a father! Provide support! I'm sure you have earned more than enough for you to do this!
That is all. I hope you keep your word. I don't have a lot of time. I'll be taking my leave. From now on, I call myself as your concubine."
Annie left us. Then I just sat down, leaning on the wall. I'm just so shocked... that I wasn't able to speak nor defend myself.
Why is this happening??? I'm not even ready to be a father!!! And now, I am like my father, who conceived me by accident!
Maiko: "Are you okay?"
Koichi: "Michiharu, is this true? All that she said, were they all true?"
How am I going to explain this...
Michiharu: "I got drunk... I drank too much when I was celebrating with the testing crew. And that's the last thing I remembered. And then I woke up in the hotel, looking messed up."
Koichi: "Michiharu. You have to be a man. This is the greatest challenge you'll ever face."
I just stood up, and went back inside. Then, I head to the garage, and look at my Countach.
All that I achieved... can just disappear in a second because of this. I have so many things yet to prove, you know?!?
How am I going to face the world? The world will just view me an irresponsible, perverted person.
And now, I can't even face everyone, Uncle and Auntie... and even my dear Tomoko.
Koichi: "Michiharu, don't let this put you down. It was all an accident."
Michiharu: "Even so, I don't want this! I intend to settle down with Tomoko, not Annie! I have so many things planned out, and all are ruined because of this!"
Koichi: "But be a man enough for you to face this. You cannot run away, Michiharu. Running away never solves problems. If you will be forced to support Annie's child, then so be it. Be thankful, that she didn't make a scene for it to become a scandal."
Michiharu: "My mind's going crazy right now... I need to take time. I'll go out again..."
I head out once again. But just at the porch. I look up at the sunny sky. Then I just sat down...
What am I going to do??? This is the biggest crisis I've ever faced! I love Tomoko so much, that I cannot face her after this. I don't want her to worry, nor find out about this at all. I don't want this to ruin our relationship!
Meanwhile, Hiroyuki has arrived, and parks his car just nearby Michiharu's home. He intends to pay a visit.
He looks at his fiancee, who is also pregnant, about to give birth in a few months time.
Hiroyuki: "Stay here,
Kyoko. I will have just a little talk with Michiharu."
Kyoko: "If you wish. But don't take too long, as I have an appointment to my gynecologist."
Hiroyuki arrives at Michiharu's home, and sees Michiharu sitting down, in a devastated state.
Hiroyuki: "There you are. And you look depressed."
Michiharu: "What are you doing here? You're here to see me?"
Hiroyuki: "Of course. I want to know how you're doing."
Michiharu: "Ugh.... well, I'm just fine."
Hiroyuki: "No you're not. You call that fine? Sitting down there on the porch thinking deeply. Is that what you call fine?"
Michiharu: "If this is about the duel, then I'm afraid I'm not yet ready. Or maybe, not at all..."
Hiroyuki: "What makes you say that?"
Michiharu: "You don't need to know. My life is ruined. Happy now? You're now the winner by default."
Hiroyuki: "Are you seriously saying that? You're not in the right mind. Or perhaps, I'm not talking to the Michiharu Kanonji."
Michiharu: "You don't have the authority nor the permission to know my problems."
Hiroyuki: "Michiharu... why are you like that? You're not the confident, brave person I used to know!"
Michiharu: "Just leave me alone! My life is ruined as it is! Go and have a successful career! I have won enough races, so I can just fall down and die in the gutter now."
Suddenly... he punched my face. Really hard. I guess you want to take back the punch I gave you.
Hiroyuki: "Wake up! OPEN YOUR EYES! You have achieved too much, for you to be down like this! Where is the Michiharu Kanonji I know?!? As far as I know, he is the most gutsy and the greatest driver I have ever known!"
I have achieved so much....
...and went this far.
Hiroyuki: "I don't care what your problem is, but get back up and be yourself! You're the one who taught me that I must have a positive outlook on life. And now you're feeling devastated?!? All that hard work you have, and the things you achieved...
...don't let them go down the drain!
I'll be waiting for your call. And make sure, that when you show up in Suzuka, all I see is the fiery Michiharu Kanonji, ready to set the track ablaze."
And then, for the first time in ten years, I broke down. I covered my eyes, as my tears fall. I remembered the time I saw Hiroyuki crying, and now he is the one seeing me crying.
I just can't take it anymore, that I have to cry. Hey, even a man has the right to cry.
Hiroyuki: "Just let them all flow. That should help."
And then he left. He has now beaten some sense to me, the same way I did to him five years ago.
In short, he just returned the favor...
End of Page 4
AUTHOR'S NOTES:
- Now you know how Axel Eisenberg is conceived...