Confession Booth

[Sureboss]

Anti-depressants can control depression but they need a will power with it, something I think you have looking at posts, etc.

ADs work for some and not for others, Amitryptiline works for some but made me worse and nearly tipped me over the edge.

Not being rude but, don't tell us tell your doctor.

PS: Not saying you can't talk to us, just say it to your doctor aswell.

We're all behind you kikie (not in a kinky way).

 

[DQuaN]

I just broke my colleagues earphones. He is sitting opposite me and hasn't noticed! What should I tell him?

 

[Dave A]

Are they expensive earphones? If not just tell him you broke them by accident and buy him some new ones. If they're expensive then I'd have to ask, is there anyone you work with that you don't like?

 

[Slick Rick]

I just broke my colleagues earphones. He is sitting opposite me and hasn't noticed! What should I tell him?

Stick em under his seat when he gets up and then when he sits down again just say 'bad luck mate, you just broke your headphones'

 

[kikie]

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[DustDriver]

@ kikie

Sorry to hear that you have a depression.

I've been reading all your previous posts and one thing amazed me.
Why do people who don't know you call you names in public?
What's wrong with these people?

I've been bullied in highschool. (from first to the 4th year) But that was mostly verbal bullying. I'm someone who hates fighting, so i didn't do anything about it, even if the person who mainly bullied me was alone and is smaller than me.
I didn't like it but it has actually made me stronger, and now i'm practically immune to verbal bullying.

You have some nice friends who really like you, and you have to keep that in mind all the time.
I only had 1 friend in highschool, but that friendship is long gone.(long story)
So currently i have no friends, mainly because i don't like to go be in really crowded areas like discotheques. And going to a place where i don't know anyone isn't my style either. Which isn't convenient when you don't have friends

And i just took the depression test on gezondheid.be and it turns out that i'm close to a depression (if you believe the site)
It actually comes down to the question if i still like sex as i used to do.
Which is hard to answer when you haven't actually had sex before

But i know what my problem is. I'm to lazy and i don't have a real hobby, which makes me even more lazy.
That's why is started to participate in the weekly race series again, to get the adrenaline going, because you want to drive as fast as you can.
Just like what you do during sporting.

Oh yea, and i have a low self esteem, but i'm not going to tell you all why, although it's obvious when you see me

 

[Danny]

@ kikie

Sorry to hear that you have a depression.

I've been reading all your previous posts and one thing amazed me.
Why do people who don't know you call you names in public?
What's wrong with these people?

I've been bullied in highschool. (from first to the 4th year) But that was mostly verbal bullying. I'm someone who hates fighting, so i didn't do anything about it, even if the person who mainly bullied me was alone and is smaller than me.
I didn't like it but it has actually made me stronger, and now i'm practically immune to verbal bullying.

You have some nice friends who really like you, and you have to keep that in mind all the time.
I only had 1 friend in highschool, but that friendship is long gone.(long story)
So currently i have no friends, mainly because i don't like to go be in really crowded areas like discotheques. And going to a place where i don't know anyone isn't my style either. Which isn't convenient when you don't have friends

And i just took the depression test on gezondheid.be and it turns out that i'm close to a depression (if you believe the site)
It actually comes down to the question if i still like sex as i used to do.
Which is hard to answer when you haven't actually had sex before

But i know what my problem is. I'm to lazy and i don't have a real hobby, which makes me even more lazy.
That's why is started to participate in the weekly race series again, to get the adrenaline going, because you want to drive as fast as you can.
Just like what you do during sporting.

Oh yea, and i have a low self esteem, but i'm not going to tell you all why, although it's obvious when you see me

When you feel that the human body is a miraculous thing, then it puts into context that everyone is perfect.

After all, what is perfection if not the view of people?

 

[DustDriver]

The problem of a low self esteem is that you think everybody finds you the complete opposite of perfection.

I'm currently working on increasing my self esteem by taking care more of my appearance. I had a bad habit of only shaving when I got my hair done.
Which is once each month or even less. (my lazy part again+ i don't like to shave)
My facial hair grows fast so the beard would be quite big after such a period of time
Now it's max 2 weeks before i shave again and I'm trying to do it every week.

It is working as my self esteem has risen a bit since i find myself less ugly

 

[kikie]

I use to work on my self esteem and it had the opposite effect. Now that I'm battling with a depression (couldn't get any deeper according psychiatrists), my subconscious is trying to fix what I destroyed all these years before this depression.
Let me explain. Due to the fact that I'm emotionally hurt, I started to think and act negatively which creates fear and phobia. I made a mess in my subconcious (neurons are shorted out and neurotransmitters are out of balance ) and I got into a depression. A depression is actually nothing more than your subconscious trying to fix the mess you made and fix the circuits that are shorted out and ofcourse the imbalance of your neurotransmitters. I can feel literally that I'm becoming a different person, the person I had to be if I hadn't gone true these ordeals in the past.

If I'm wrong, feel free to rectify me (anybody)...

@ Dustdriver: They bullied me around for the way that I look, I won't say more. So it was always personal.

 

[GT4_Rule]

I've been bullied in highschool. (from first to the 4th year) But that was mostly verbal bullying. I'm someone who hates fighting, so i didn't do anything about it, even if the person who mainly bullied me was alone and is smaller than me.
I didn't like it but it has actually made me stronger, and now i'm practically immune to verbal bullying.

I've just talked to my teacher about verbal bullying. Its been going on since 8th Grade, and now I'm in Grade 11. Those losers have nothing better to do. Nobody knew I had a problem. Even my teacher didn't know that I had this problem until I talked to her about it today.

 

[Fairlady240zg]

I farted in church and blamed it on the old lady infront of us.

My girlfriend wasnt amused.

 

[Omnis]

Aww, dude. I farted on the bus today, and it was KILLER. It was one of those mozzarella pizza-farts. Fire and brimstone, baby.

 

[OZZYGT]

I farted in church and blamed it on the old lady infront of us.

My girlfriend wasnt amused.

Aww, dude. I farted on the bus today, and it was KILLER. It was one of those mozzarella pizza-farts. Fire and brimstone, baby.
Today 12:26 AM

Excellent change of context 👍, you both get a reward.




Ciao!

 

[Silverzone]

I'm listening to the Dave Matthews Band.. I feel odd.. and ashamed.. I don't know why I'm still listening to it.. It's sooo mellow...

 

[eg6_dude]

I once made love to my cousin..... JK

On a more serious note I once described Scaff with some....er...interesting words, as I used to think he was too smart for his own good, after he replied to a thread I made!

I have a lotta respect for the guy though!

 

[mrnoname]

i'm friends with one of the most banned members of GTP

 

[GT4_Rule]

i'm friends with one of the most banned members of GTP

And he is called......?

 

[daan]

And he is called......?

Oooh! I know! Can I say? Ooooh, this is so exciting.

 

[GT4_Rule]

Okay, I will not post anymore for a while. I obviously didn't think too much.

 

[TopHat]

i'm friends with one of the most banned members of GTP

Why do I think that you might just be either PS or psI-CIVIC?

But I digress, I went hunting for Christmas presents the other day, I found my sisters...

 

[mrnoname]

PS ,psiCIVIC???

whos that

 

[TopHat]

i'm friends with one of the most banned members of GTP

That would most likely be either Public_Secrecy OR psI-Civic.

PS ,psiCIVIC???

whos that

Ok....Who, may I ask are you talking about then?

 

[daan]

Ok....Who, may I ask are you talking about then?

It doesn't matter, but it was no-one as interesting as those two.

i'm friends with one of the most banned members of GTP

When you, or he, said this, you, or he, just made sure that you, or he, is going to be watched more closely than usual.

And yes, I do know who he, or you, is.

 

[kikie]

*update*

I don't how to start so I'm just going say it. You guys have the right to know.

*knock on wood and hold on to it*

I'm depression free. I'm out off it, officially and I feel like it too. I took the advice of Ozzy and went to a neuro-psychiatrist. I've been seeing this shrink for a while now and he declared me depression free. He also gave me the nicest compliment I've had in a while.
He's an older neuro-psych. and the director of a hospital, so he knows what he's talking about. He said:" I've almost never encountered someone like you whom has such a very strong will power". Even my personal doktor and friends told me that I have a strong character. I know I'm bragging but this explains why I got out off this severe depression.
I'm still on meds and will be for the next 6 - 9 months. *God forbids that I should relapse*. It's always possible to relapse and I don't want to go through that again.

Thanks for all the support and advice on this forum and personal (PM's).


I also want to take the oppurtunity to apologize openly to ozzy for my bad defensive attitude in the "questions for mods" thread. Sorry dude, you were right! and no ozzy, I'm not and never will be a fanboy!

 

[Danny]

Way to go Chris!
Everyone knew you could do it, it's just a case of finding the right help.

Very proud of you, keep it up

 

[kikie]

Thanks Danny.

 

[G.T]

Well done, kikie!

You may have not realised before, but the results are so much better when you seek help. So many people in similar situations still find it hard to get the help they need, but you built up enough strength to do so. You should be proud in yourself!

 

[kikie]

Thanks G.T.. I thought I could handle it on my own but I needed help, like you said. I'm proud of myself and the compliment the psych. gave me.

 

[Slick Rick]

Thats excellent news Kikie! Well done:tup:

With all the things you've told us you've been through, someone would have to be crazy not to call you an extremely strong character.

 

[kikie]

Thats excellent news Kikie! Well done:tup:

With all the things you've told us you've been through, someone would have to be crazy not to call you an extremely strong character.

Thanks for the kind words.