At the risk of making my views on religion known, *
knows better than to discuss religion or politics, with strangers, no less* I can't help but offer my two cents on this topic:
I would currently classify myself as a pragmatic Agnostic.
Pragmatic in the sense that while I don't necessarily believe
there is a God, or life after death, I am nevertheless
hopeful that
death is not the end of my existence. Or, to put it another way, about 300 days a year,
I would consider myself an Atheist, and on the other 65 "good" days, a cautiously optimistic Agnostic.
Does it get more Bi-Polar than that?
Perhaps that is a cowardly, narcissistic outlook on
the subject, (I should just pick a position and stick with it--Atheist or Believer) but to be honest, it pretty much
sums up my thoughts on the subject.
I have grown fond of my ability to think, reason, feel, hope, etc.
And I sincerely hope that the entity that has come to be known
as "Me" doesn't simply cease to exist when I die.
As for God, I was raised in a culture in which conservative Christianity was (and still is) a dominant force (for reference, I happen to live in a county in which the sale of alcohol is
still not legal--only recently have they allowed "by the drink" sales in restaurants). Being raised in a religious family, I began life believing in God and Christ because, essentially, it was foisted upon me by well-meaning (albeit overzealous) adults. I guess the last time I actually believed in God--in the Christian sense of the term--was, maybe 7 or 8 years ago, before I got my Master's Degree. Since then, my faith has slowly, but inexorably deteriorated to the point that I now classify myself as an Agnostic. I can't say it was one single event or piece of evidence that has eroded my faith. Just the simple process of gaining maturity and having more "real world" experiences has led to a gradual refinement of my philosophical/religious views.
Having said all that, I harbor no ill-will toward those who believe in God (in any form, Christian or otherwise). And I am still very much open to persuasion on this subject. Yet, I have still not encountered a
convincing, intelligent, rational, philosophic argument in favor of the existence of God in the last several years. Never mind the physical evidence so many seem to want to see. If there is indeed a God, I just don't think that's the way he/she operates. You either have faith, or you don't--and I'm all out at the moment. But, then again, I guess if I am waiting for a convincing argument in favor of God/Life After Death that doesn't include some evidence, I may be waiting for a very long time...
To borrow a thought I heard from someone long ago, the mind is like a rubber band--once stretched to new boundaries, it can never return to its former size and shape. It's the same for me regarding God/Religion. Having been exposed to other ideas and arguments, I just can't embrace that type of blind faith again...maybe ever