Confession Booth

[W3H5]

Some of these confessions are nothing more than mediocre anecdotes.

 

[Azure Flare]

I could post something along the lines of what @Slash said, but I'm still not ready to talk about that...

It would pretty much encompass the bad parts of my life right up to around the middle of last year, and it is quite a lot...

 

[Roger the Horse]

It's mostly that I'm worried about what people might say. I already spent a large proportion of my school life being laughed at for being weird and ridiculously weak and scrawny (still can't do a pull-up) so I mean IDK if they would understand or not.

If people laugh at you for who you are, then those people are douchebags. They're the problem, not you. Always remember that, and also remember that those who bully others are generally massively insecure themselves for whatever reason. Either ask them what it is that's troubling them, or just ignore them if you can. (Report them to the police if they're really a problem.)

 

[Touring Mars]

@Slash At least you are facing up to your past behaviour and acknowledge that it is/was wrong... I'm sure it takes alot of courage to admit to being like that, but trying to pretend it didn't happen or to simply ignore it would be the worst thing of all. You can't change the fact that you've done these things and it is probably fair to say that you should feel bad about them, but the fact that you do feel bad about them is a good sign - it shows that you have moved on from what could have been a disastrous path. We've all done things that we regret, but learning from your mistakes and being honest with yourself and others is a good place to start to make amends.

 

[Bo]

I personally can't recall a moment in my life when I felt like I wasn't male. However, I was fairly certain I was straight until I met this guy when I was 16...

I'm pretty much 100% sure i'm straight. However, i've never had a relationship with a girl, nor had any real motive to do so. The most important people in my life are all male, and i've formed very deep family-like bonds with them. I'm not afraid to say that I love those people. All that made me think, "am I really straight?".

I don't want, and never will want, any sexual relationship with them, so i've settled for a definite yes (so far).

 

[Roger the Horse]

You could be asexual.

 

[Bo]

You could be asexual.

I have thought about that, but i'm not particularly bothered whatever way really.

A fair few people have thought i'm gay, but I know i'm not.

 

[W3H5]

The only true way to know if your straight it to consider being gay. If you do that and it occurs that it isn't you, they it isn't for you. That's how I know I'm heterosexual.

For the first 17 years of my life though I did believe I was mechasexual, I liked girls but loved only machines.

 

[Bo]

mechasexual

That's a tiny bit of me, I must say.

 

[Lizard]

I am 100% straight. I have never had a girlfriend but I have seen a few things on the net to determine what I like. I do however sometimes feel like I wish I was a girl. Strange because I am still straight. It's quite spur of the moment though. Sometimes I am happy being male sometimes not so much.

For my confession. I once bailed out of a contract with my best friend at the last minute. Due to the fact I didn't realize the contract wasn't valid without all the signatures and I thought I had cost him loads of money I stood for about 5 minutes in his kitchen in front of him considering seppuku (basic idea of bushido, to lose ones honor is to lose ones life and I have somehow come to accept these values as a moral code.) holding a knife in front of me with the blade facing my stomach. I scared him quite a bit with that so that was a horrible thing to do as well.

 

[Roger the Horse]

There's no correlation between sexuality and gender identity.

 

[Lizard]

There's no correlation between sexuality and gender identity.

I know that but if I was a girl I would be a lesbian in my current mind-set and thus it feels strange because I am straight.

 

[Roger the Horse]

You could be both a straight guy and a lesbian at the same time. Gender identity isn't binary. One can have multiple genders at the same time. (And no, one does not need a split personality to achieve this. Trust me.)

 

[Zyla]

Case in point, if I were a girl, I'd probably be a lesbian. Just sayin'.

 

[Lizard]

My biggest worry though is trying to find a girlfriend. Will they accept my feminine side? I know if you truly love someone you will accept people for who they are but sometimes things can be a bit hard to take for people.

 

[Roger the Horse]

I think most girls would be fine dating a guy with a feminine side. Trust me.

 

[C-ZETA]

Personally, what I do is believe in the concept of 'man-crushes' - but for me, they're usually just footballers. And they're few and far between.
Ironically my deep love of football really juxtaposes my other side, which is usually just filled with stuff like, say, my avatar. And much more besides.
But when I see an IRL girl who I do think is really pretty, I will obsess over them. And without regard to who or where I do it near.
Indeed, in Year 12, where I am now, my up-till-then all-boy school welcomes girls into the sixth form, so I just knew I was going to find at least one I liked a lot.
I've found two. I (effectively) ****ed up with both of them thanks to outside sources, but I don't care - they're too beautiful for me to just ignore.

Effectively, my feminine side only ever shows on the internet. In person, it's all masculine, unless I drop it for some friendly banter - mostly relating to the aforementioned 'football man-crushes' topic (or in the company of some who bring up certain topics).

 

[Lizard]

I think most girls would be fine dating a guy with a feminine side. Trust me.

Yes but to my extent?

 

[GTboyz]

Nvm

 

[sems4arsenal]

Only a few people on GTP know about this. When I was young, a lot of outsiders used to bully me
My core group of friends always had my back, and I still hang out with them today, but it was everyone else that would put me down.

I had a very hard time through some of elementary school. I was the strange kid with the eye patch (lazy eye), glasses and very prominent buckteeth. I'll never forget one name..."bucky the buckasaurus"...that one really hurt. Another kid once said to me "you must really love Spongebob because your teeth are just like his!"

I had issues. Been called everything from inbred to who knows what. It couldn't be farther from the truth. To this day I hate my physical appearance.

So it put me in a strange place. I felt angry and it got taken out on the wrong people. What happened to me is no excuse for what I have done. Please be aware I am very ashamed of what I did and regret it every day. Please don't think differently of me.

I used to physically beat up on a mentally challenged kid. I'd shove him and knock him down. I never was caught. Never got in trouble.

Then i used to control my moms friends kid. The sense of power over them made me feel invincible.

Then i use to beat up on but not bad a little one, and she wasn't very old and oh my god thinking about it now i want to cry.

I feel absolutely horrible. I absolutely despise every aspect to that part of my life.

I went from being bullied to becoming a bully.

I became an aggressive person. I got into fights a lot. My mental state started deterioating. Slowly. Then my head injury and accident came and it messed my head up really bad.

My self worth and confidence in everything plummeted. To this day I still have severe issues with taking pride in anything I do.

I gave into peer pressure. I wanted to fit in with my friends. This is how my battle with activities I can't realy discuss on GTP came about. Many of you premo guys know about this stuff.

This was hard for me to put out there. I just needed to say it. Tell me i am a piece of crap for doing it. I know I am. And its something I am going to have to live with.

I'd try to make it right with him if you can find him. The important thing is that you know what you did is wrong, we all make mistakes, better to move on. Takes real courage to post something like that so big respect to you 👍

 

[Slash]

I'd try to make it right with him if you can find him. The important thing is that you know what you did is wrong, we all make mistakes, better to move on. Takes real courage to post something like that so big respect to you 👍

I think they moved out of state.

Even worse because it was a friend of mines brother. She doesn't know.

 

[sems4arsenal]

I think they moved out of state.

Even worse because it was a friend of mines brother. She doesn't know.

It's in the past, heck you are one of the nicest guys here now so what's done is done.

 

[Slash]

It's in the past, heck you are one of the nicest guys here now so what's done is done.

Appreciate the kind words bud.

 

[funnyguy344]

I get told by many people that I'm gay. I know I'm straight because I like a girl I know a lot and getting told a lot that I'm gay gets annoying. Even though I know there trying to make me feel bad but sure gets annoying.

 

[Azure Flare]

Teenagers (and many of the same morons later in their lives) often use the word "gay" to describe something that is bad.

 

[mustang fanatic]

Apparently, it means "happy" too.

 

[Azure Flare]

It looks like Pharrell has some 'splainin to do.

 

[Cb]

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[Roger the Horse]

I find it extremely difficult to make friends with cisgendered people.

 

[TexRex]

Nvm

"Whoops...not...gonna...go...there."

I'm just gonna come right out and say it...I don't like the McLaren P1! Now let whatever fury rain down upon me--I have my umbrella.