@RacerTed let me ask you; are you afraid to
not believe in God (or doubt Him)? Or do you genuinely and wholeheartedly believe in His existence?
A thousand years ago, the plausibility of God was much more realistic given humans' total lack of understanding (as a whole, there were of course many exceptions - philosophers, thinkers, scientists, astronomers and so on). But as time goes by we are learning more and more about the Universe, Earth, our own species, evolution, physics and so on.
The more we learn, the less plausible God is becoming. Christianity is being painted into a corner of borderline nonsense. Believers in the Bible are more and more claiming that the verses within are "metaphors" rather than literal instruction, because as we advance as a species we realise that things like slavery, marrying your rape victim, infanticide, subjugation of women, mass genocide (of which God is guilty) etc - I could go on - are utterly absurd.
Christians pick and choose which verses to take literally in order to align with modern law and thinking, and those verses are being slowly but surely ruled out. The Bible is so primitive in its entirety that eventually the whole thing will be known as a work of total fiction.
Then what?
I'm 99.99% sure of what I believe, but yes I will admit to a .01% of doubt on occasion. But the conclusions I come to after looking at the complexity of all this is that it just couldn't have happened by chance.
Regarding your list of atrocities there:
Slavery-I've heard a black pastor (Tony Evans) on the radio say that the slavery in the Bible is more like indentured servitude.
Marrying your rape victim-Doesn't exist, sorry. There is a verse that says that if a man entices a woman to lay with him he is to marry her. Rape is a capital offense in the OT.
Infanticide-I know this is splitting hairs, but on the rare occasion that God commanded that it was in judgement to wipe out a people group-that was committing child sacrifice-some things I do scratch my head at and this is one of them. I know this would also be splitting hairs, but you do have to differentiate between what would be a commandment and what would be a historical account, one of the things (I forget who on here) likes to bring up about the killing of everyone except the young women, which was said by Moses. The reason Moses gave (and he learned this in Egypt) was so that the young men wouldn't grow up to take revenge on them.
Subjugation of Women-The Bible doesn't teach this. The Bible does teach that we have roles to play on our family 'team' if you will, and every team has a captain. Have you not heard of Ephesians 5:25 that says 'husbands love your wives like Christ loved the church and gave himself for it'?
I'm sure you're wondering why I still believe even with all that (what we in the faith would call) judgement going on.
Old Testament prophecy-Ezekiel told years before of how the city of Tyre would be besieged by country after country, starting with Babylon, and two centuries later continuing with Alexander the Great (who was spoken of at length in the book of Daniel, two centuries prior also).
Speaking of Alexander, the book of Daniel gives great detail of his conquest all the way up to how his kingdom is divided into four parts at his death.
The book of Daniel also accurately describes characteristics of (and two of them Daniel lived to see, so if you roll your eyes I'll understand) of the four major empires that ruled back then: Babylon, Medo-Persia, Greece and Roman.
Toward the end of Daniel there is a verse-Dan 12:4 'But thou O Daniel, shut up the words, and seal the book, even to the time of the end: many shall run to and fro, and KNOWLEDGE SHALL BE INCREASED.
I know there are those that say that the book of Daniel was written after some if not all of what we know of history, but you're not getting it written past that last verse.
For all of recorded history, man traveled and communicated by animal, wind and foot. Until the power of steam, just a little over two hundred years ago. And that was only a water pump. In the last 200+ years, we've gone from the way it was done for millennia, to all the wonderful tech we see to day. Roughly 60 years after the Wright Brothers fly, men are on the moon, roughly 80 years after the first motor car is patented, we have the height of automotive engineering, the Ford GT.
As for all of the scientific discovery that is ongoing, you won't ever get past how it all got here to begin with for one.
Two, an honest person of faith finds no trouble with science. I'm with Keppler who said he was 'thinking God's thoughts after him'. In other words, all you are doing is finding out how God did it.
Or geneticist and former atheist Dr. Francis Collins, who said (among many other things) The God of the Bible is also the God of the genome. He can be worshipped in the cathedral or in the laboratory. His creation is majestic, awesome, intricate and beautiful.
Or this, 'God is most certainly not threatened by science; he made it all possible'.
He's said many other things on faith, but I'm not gonna type them all out.
What happens when you end up on your knees before Jesus Christ, look over his shoulder and see a jar on the shelf just past his chemistry set with your name on it?
Then what?