I wish. The half hour I have at my alternate school is a blessing.
Trust me on this one, it gets
really boring after a while. When my group of friends all used to hangout with each other every lunch, and blast metal, probably did that since Grade 8! -And have good laughs, it was fun. That all started changing mid-way through Grd.11, now as I go through Grd.12, I find myself hating lunch. Though I'm still good friends with most people that where in our group, they've all gone their separate ways. I see only a few of them during the 10 minute breaks. I started to go home for lunch and do nothing. Really sucks.
But is it worth throwing away my high school years, what are said by many to be the best of ones life?
Please help.
All I can say, is honestly.. they've been the worst times of mine. Full of stupid mistakes, I've lost friends, am full of conflicting emotions. Now that I'm actually in Grade 12, and can see the end of school in sight (Something I thought never would happen) I'm scared of it. I thought I would be happy (To be done school), but the more I think of it, the more I realize that once I'm out... I doubt I'll see many of my friends anymore, life will become simply working everyday, sitting alone on the weekends doing nothing. As for the rest, I can't really say what to do. It's your decision in the end. 👍
This week off has been sad, I've literally done nothing. Didn't leave my bed until 2 PM yesterday. Seemingly lost most of my appetite, having eaten just a mere bowl of soup for dinner yesterday, and nothing since. Just sat here all morning listening to Frank Sinatra and Pink Floyd albums, in the full. Trying to feel better.
I'm rambling, sorry. I've been really down lately.