Woah, i read this whole thread, first off, John, i've known you a while.. We've pretty much fallen out of contact because of life situations and whatnot (my own, really).. But i've always known you to be a good guy. And i remember when you first met dana. You seemed pretty happy, and i was happy for you. I believe i remember griping about how i didtn have a girlfriend, haha. But you're a good guy for letting your emotions free. You can't hold them back forever, they'll kill you, man.
Secondly, you scared the SHIB out of me!! I read your post and my heart literally jumped out of my chest. I sincerely hope you're okay, and i hope things come to a good conclusion.. If that post had anything to do with dana and you breaking up, don't worry about it.. Yeah you have a connection, but if its true and is meant to be, it will work out soon enough.
If not, don't worry about it.. It's time to focus on YOU, you need to work with yourself. You've started the path, now you just have to find your way to the end of it.. I know you care about dana but you need to care for yourself too. Be strong, you can do it.
You've always been known to do damn near everything else!! You bastid.