My day was typically fine, but now I can't sleep. I need to get this off my chest. I am such an awkward teenager and I seriously don't know how the hell I'm not socially outcast already because of the amount of awkward situations I've begun with every and I repeat every single girl I've had a crush on. Thinking about it is literally making me cringe whenever I close my eyes.
First of all, a girl I've liked for a bit overhears me talking with my friend about a movie I liked and said she liked it, too. I froze, looked at her, and walked away. Another was when I danced with a girl back in sixth grade. I asked her to dance while I had a bead of sweat trickling down my face. She said yes, and I said nothing as I couldn't wipe my face off while my hands were at her waist. She tried making small talk, but I was just in the moment and I tried to play cool. My friend came over and acted like he was taking pictures so I let go and chased after him. She left.
More. Shy, but pretty girl I had a crush on. She waited outside math class every Friday alone because she made announcements as part of her leadership class. Made eye contact, didn't do anything. Fast forward to next year. I ask her to... Homecoming. Awkward. Awkward. Awkward. She ended up not going with me and avoided me the entire night.
Shortly after, develop crush on girl who instantly friendzones me. I awkwardly try to compliment her. Doesn't work.
I compliment another girl in the hopes of starting something. It went along the lines of, "Hey, I... uh... like your... hair..." She didn't respond. I awkwardly get back to classwork.
Sat next to a girl in Biology. She wasn't interested. Tried to get her to like me, anyways. As a super-popular and super-pretty girl, she didn't notice me. We had PE dance classes together. Of a group of 4 girls and 4 guys, she didn't choose me to be her partner. Felt defeated.
I can expand on the Homecoming story more, but that will take a few more lines, and I feel like I've gotten it all out at the moment. I'm sorry if this isn't the right thread, but I just needed to get this out. Feel free to cringe. This hurts to proofread.