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[GT Pro]

Her we go.

In october last year (2008) I relapsed into a severe depression. It went from bad to worse so I decide to find a good neuro psychiatrist.I think I found one but I'm not sure because one of my problems (depression) is that I don't trust anyone or anything. October 8th, he drew blood and got it analysed in Belgium and a specialized lab in Germany where they can determine the amount of serotonine in once blood. As expected, I have a severe shortish of serotonine with all the consequence that comes with a shortage of serotonine => depression, fobia, severe anxiety attacks, lack of sleep (not enough serotonine means not enoug melatonine, hormon that makes a person sleep), severe case of hypochondria and a mild case of psychoses, feeling/sense of guilt, fear of failure, lack of self-confidence, absolutely no appetite, aggression, etc... (there is much more)

Every moring I wake up wishing that I wasn't around anymore. I start to shiver, get anxiety attacks and feel very depressed. I try to get out of bed but I can't and after one hour I force myself to get up.

Going to the toilet, washing yourself is a very scary thing to do if you have this condition. Luckily, there are some moments that I don't feel that depressed and don't have anxiety attacks, it's during those moments that I go shopping and do things (very hard to do but it must be done), wash, shave myself.
Every little thing can trigger an anxiety attack.

At the moment my life in unbearable to live...

I too have quite a sever deficiency of serotonin and need to take tablets to supplement it, though I've never tried a food supplements. Tablets help, but it would seem that curing the associated feeling of anxiety, present almost always, is impossible for me. Even the most minor and undangerous of events trigger my sympathetic nervous system into overdrive. Maybe Thai-Chi would help.

 

[Simplex 4100U]

sorry for going off-topic, but i think some people have forgotten the true meaning of this thread...

...ahem...

i set off a fire alarm system by spraying a smoke detector in a restroom with disinfectant spray and i never told anyone about it.

i stole a fire alarm strobe from another rest room and kept it for a while, and then when i went back, there was one in it's place, so i just wired the old one to the new one, so that both were just hanging from the ceiling box(24V systems aren't that dangerous to work with)

 

[ROAD_DOGG33J]

I too have quite a sever deficiency of serotonin and need to take tablets to supplement it, though I've never tried a food supplements. Tablets help, but it would seem that curing the associated feeling of anxiety, present almost always, is impossible for me. Even the most minor and undangerous of events trigger my sympathetic nervous system into overdrive. Maybe Thai-Chi would help.

I read that depression causes the lack of serotonin. So pills themselves probably won't really fix the problem.

 

[Legendary]

sorry for going off-topic, but i think some people have forgotten the true meaning of this thread...

No, they have not. He was confessing that he had indeed thought of killing himself, he was telling the world he has the condition which affects him...

That my friend, is on topic.


Aaaaaaanyway. I tore something important up when I was about 5 and then dad got really annoyed and I blamed it on my sister. She got in so much trouble and no-one knows.

 

[ramchargerQC]

One day , i was like 10 and i was riding my bike while talking to my friend, i was not looking foward and i was going much on the right and much and much and much, and my handle bar was only in steel with no rubber on it and i just scratch the paint of a parcked BMW M3 on the entire lenght of the car, and it was not a little scratch, the car was depainted to the steel!!!
I was like OO, DAMN, i hope the driver did not see me and i begin to ride full throttle to my house and i wasn't looking back, can i say to you that my hearth was beating incredibly FAST

( i hope the owner of the M3 don't read this xD)

 

[Casio]

I confess. I have no idea what that previous post said. I'm so confused.

 

[ramchargerQC]

sorry, i am very bad in english, i try my best but i still very very bad

 

[Legendary]

I confess. I have no idea what that previous post said. I'm so confused.

What he said was in simpler terms:

He was riding along on his bike talking to a friend not looking where he was going:tdown:. The handlebars had no grips so the part where you hold onto the handle bars was bare steel. Because he wasn't looking where he was going he rode into the side of the bmw m3 and put a scratch all the way along the body length:tdown:👎👎👎.

 

[ramchargerQC]

i am glad someone understand what i write

 

[Rykon Zero]

I understood it perfectly fine.

I confess that I get extremely angry when people attempt to degrade my intelligence, by calling me a retard, and I can become violent when things like that happen over and over again. And thanks to my ancestry, when I try to hurt someone, they are hurt badly.
(I am always called weak by my brother and uncle, but I am one of the strongest people in school)

 

[Legendary]

^^ He secretly wants to become superman!

Eat lots of protein and at our age it will be easy to become a muscle man in 10-20 years.

 

[bergauk]

I used to cut when I was 16.

 

[ExigeEvan]

^^ He secretly wants to become superman!

Eat lots of protein and at our age it will be easy to become a muscle man in 10-20 years.

Oh god, not another protein gives you muscle with no effort person!

 

[Stevisiov]

Oh god, not another protein gives you muscle with no effort person!

Shhh!!! Don't spoil it for him.

 

[Sureboss]

I too have quite a sever deficiency of serotonin and need to take tablets to supplement it, though I've never tried a food supplements. Tablets help, but it would seem that curing the associated feeling of anxiety, present almost always, is impossible for me. Even the most minor and undangerous of events trigger my sympathetic nervous system into overdrive. Maybe Thai-Chi would help.

Anxiety attacks are very scary things, when I had my depression (think it's about 2 years recovered now) it was the worst part of it. How can something so sodding trivial make me go into an anxiety attack? Once my laptop battery died and all I needed to do was to unplug the battery and put it back in, but I had an anxiety attack instead, which resulted in me putting my fist through a window. To have no control over something that can make walls look like they are moving towards you is unbelievably daunting.

With depression you never feel that it will end, but on the other hand I will say that I am glad for the experience (not some bits, obviously, it's horrible at times) but it's made me a stronger and nicer person. Obviously given the choice I would have never have had it, then again it probably stopped me from going into accountancy! 👍

 

[RVDNuT374]

Noone in my family knows this, but I've become a Def Leppard fan.

 

[kikie]

I read that depression causes the lack of serotonin. So pills themselves probably won't really fix the problem.

No it is the other way around. Lack of serotonine causes depressions and other related problems. Pills do work. The antidepressant of the SSRI type do work. SSRI = Selective Serotonine Re-uptake Inhibitor. These pills prevent the re-uptaking of serotonine, resulting in more serotonine.

Now my confession part.

Relapsing after being almost depression free is totally my own fault. On september 25th, I stopped taking St John's wort (Hypericum perforatum) when I wasn't supposed to.
For those who don't know, St John's wort is a natural (plant, not synthetic) antidepressant of the SSRI type.

 

[Jetboy.]

Confession: I'm a five year member and I wasn't even active at the time to celebrate. Fail.

Cheers,
Jetboy

 

[Sureboss]

My first day off college is today /o\ Feeling rough yet still have 2 assignments for tomorrow. Whoopee.

 

[ceiling_fan]

I've taken an interest in pharmacology, particularly psychopharmacology. I find it very interesting how chunks of compressed powder (more or less) can affect people's thinking process, instincts, and general mood, sometimes for reasons unknown.
(joke about pill avatar goes here.)

 

[peeweegary]

I'm very irritated when people smarter than you claim that you have a higher mark than them, even though they already know your mark. The worse thing is, they try to sound sincere. Why not stop being a ****** and just tell me what you're gettting. It's not like i can't handle the truth.

 

[Rykon Zero]

I do the opposite of that.
"Aw, I got a D on that test."
Me: "Bwahahaha! A! A! In your face! Ahahaha!"
I'm seemingly very evil.

 

[peeweegary]

I do the opposite of that.
"Aw, I got a D on that test."
Me: "Bwahahaha! A! A! In your face! Ahahaha!"
I'm seemingly very evil.

It's not that im failing either...im consistently getting A's but just...friends are getting A+...loll

 

[MinoltaMan89]

Here's my confession: I have a terrible fear a scorpions, and have had that since I was a little kid. Nothing happened, but I've always hated them.

Oh, and, what happened to this thread? I loved everybody giving nd 4 holden spd advice on girls! I wonder how he's doing now?

 

[Nicksfix]

confessing of a terrible fear of snakes , even those little garden snakes that supposedly can't harm you.

 

[Turbo Lag]

I usually leave homework to the last minute. I'm trying to get out of the habit, and I really do need to change now. I'm trying my best now, but still keep procrastinating and making up other things to do instead.

 

[mcsqueegy]

I usually leave homework to the last minute. I'm trying to get out of the habit, and I really do need to change now. I'm trying my best now, but still keep procrastinating and making up other things to do instead.

Don't we all?? Except I have no willpower to give up habits like that. Anyway...

I'm socially inept. I just don't know how to talk to people's faces. MSN and other things like that are ok, but I really think improving my social skills will provide more enjoyable classes. Especially since i'm not in the same class as anybody I know...

 

[Turbo Lag]

I'm socially inept. I just don't know how to talk to people's faces. MSN and other things like that are ok, but I really think improving my social skills will provide more enjoyable classes. Especially since i'm not in the same class as anybody I know...

Don't use that as an excuse, I've been in this new school for a week now and know heaps of people!, and I wouldn't call myself very good at my social skills.

 

[Legendary]

I payed the price today for that homework habit. Spent 15 minutes on the train doing homework and another 40mins in the afternoon. Ive never done that much homework in one day...maybe I should start doing it the day I get it. Hmmmmm.

 

[DaddyVDUB]

confessing of a terrible fear of snakes , even those little garden snakes that supposedly can't harm you.

I Confess a total disabling FEAR of Sasquatch. I saw one(photo) since then I just have'nt been the same.