What happened to ceiling_fan?
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Figured they'd just edit it out. Oh well.
boiltheocean
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It's nice to have you back. Takes something to post your experience. I was quite moved when I read it all.
Good luck.
I fear I may be heading in a similar direction although not as intense. I have no enthusiasm and rarely look happy. Does anyone have any advice?
Good luck.
I fear I may be heading in a similar direction although not as intense. I have no enthusiasm and rarely look happy. Does anyone have any advice?
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I feel like this all the time, especially lately. I never say or do anything positive anymore, I complain about every single little thing and I've noticed that people around me have started ignoring me now. I don't want to get up in the morning to do anything, it doesn't seem worth the effort.
Anyway in regards to the original topic, it must have taken a lot to post all of that on a public forum, I read through the entire thing and it was certainly very hard hitting and gave me something to think about.
Good luck to you ceiling fan, you seem to be heading in the right direction now at least. 👍
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Icanhascheezburger?
boiltheocean
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Erm no. I have reached a point where I am thinking sometimes of suicide. Nothing is bothering me and I can't focus on anything, My mind seems occupied doing something else.
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Yes, don't take your advice on how to deal with depression from a Gran Turismo forum. You need to speak to your doctor about this or seek some form of counselling. Your GP should be able to point you in the right direction, or atleast set the ball rolling.
Please don't take this the wrong way - as this thread is a good example of, this forum is full of people who will give you some support, and these forums may also provide you with a place to share your worries etc., but support and 'advice' are two very different things, especially when we're talking about a very serious condition like depression. Although there is plenty of information elsewhere on the net, stuff like this is best discussed with a real person who is qualified to help people in this situation... 👍
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That's possible!!?! I'd be depressed if I stayed away from metal... It makes me feel better and calm me down at times... opposite reaction?
Anyways... that's some really intense stuff that went down, I hope you feel better. Doesn't help that it's raining here in the Bay Area too... but I guess we need it. Hopefully you don't have to go through this again. I've had friends in similar situations and it's really tough to deal with sometimes.
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Or just see the doctor.
I had a pretty crappy day yesterday. The thing that ruined my mood? The fact that I found out I had to apply at places while I'm on unemployment. Silly, right? Losing my job doesn't upset me, but getting a new one does...
I eventually realized it wouldn't be that hard since I'll be applying at places that most likely aren't hiring anyway. All I need is a name and date to satisfy the state. No biggie. Simple things like that tend to upset me a lot, just because something didn't go my way I suppose.
boiltheocean
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Ok. I know how to get hold of my GP but what should I ask. I really don't know how to put across what I need to say, I know I want something to do with Mental Health but I'm lost after that.
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Ask him if you thinks you need to see a psychiatrist. You don't worry about what you tell him; let him ask the questions. If he hears or sees you acting a certain way that piques his interest he'll make a recommendation. He's the doctor, and you're the patient.
One thing I've noticed while I'm unhappy is that I can't make decisions for myself, and I always ask for advice concerning the simplest things. I've got no confidence in my own abilities. You just gotta buck up and straighten yourself out and do it. My dad always telling me to "stop acting like a pussy" doesn't sound nice, but it works.
One thing I've noticed while I'm unhappy is that I can't make decisions for myself, and I always ask for advice concerning the simplest things. I've got no confidence in my own abilities. You just gotta buck up and straighten yourself out and do it. My dad always telling me to "stop acting like a pussy" doesn't sound nice, but it works.
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My friend viewing the thread was getting a headache from it, and it wasn't really relevant to the thread. Sorry ಠ_ಠ.
Well, seeking advice from a forum on a serious matter like depression isn't the best way to go about things, but any input is definitely better than no input. I don't know how old you are but everybody goes through a 'weird' period in adolescence, even if they don't realize it later. Talk to your doctor (doesn't have to be a psychiatrist) and he/she'll will steer you in the right direction. 👍
I hate to say it but I have noticed the complaining aspect around GTP
Since I don't really know you that well, it could be situational or non-situational (there's a word for this, can't remember) If you can't find an identifiable cause, this link may provide some insight. Like I said earlier, do not self-diagnose, even if you believe you have most of the symptoms of depression. Talk to a doctor for a more professional opinion.Moglet
Thanks, I'm really glad sharing my experience was thought-provoking.
Way to answer a question directed at me much better
Music does different things for different people. I know some extremely kind and calm people who listen to Grindcore all the time, different strokes for different folks.
ceiling_fan, I'm glad to hear you are doing good. I hope you stay that way, and that the whole experience gave you another perspective towards life. You can always count on me buddy, so if you need someone to talk to, I'm always here for you.
Thanks L 👍
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David,
I'm glad to hear that you managed to make it through this rather terrifying period of your life relatively unscathed, and that things are much improved. On reading your account, the most encouraging thing is that you have the ability to recognize when thing are going downhill and take appropriate steps before they get dangerously bad. 👍
I enjoyed meeting you at the last SFGTP, and look forward to the next one!
I'm glad to hear that you managed to make it through this rather terrifying period of your life relatively unscathed, and that things are much improved. On reading your account, the most encouraging thing is that you have the ability to recognize when thing are going downhill and take appropriate steps before they get dangerously bad. 👍
I enjoyed meeting you at the last SFGTP, and look forward to the next one!
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Wow man, I know how you feel to a small extent. I used to get real heavily depressed and thought about suicide quite a bit. I'd snap and beat and cut myself over the littlest things, but once I got my car it seemed to get rid of all those feelings.
What happened to you is quite intense though, I'm glad you didn't kill yourself. It's great that your getting better, hopefully you'll be back to normal in no time.
What happened to you is quite intense though, I'm glad you didn't kill yourself. It's great that your getting better, hopefully you'll be back to normal in no time.
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Glad to hear your ok, and well done on doing the right thing at the right time. Hope you are on the way to a full recovery now though. 👍
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Didn't read this until now. What a scary experience! It's great to hear you're okay though. Hopefully it's all over with and you're on your way to a good recovery!
Do they know what it was that caused this?
I'm not your doctor, but it could be just a little depression. That kind of thing happens to be quite a bit. I was pretty depressed almost all of last semester because I was doing pretty badly in classes and I was getting scared that I might have to drop out of college and things because I was going to fail everything that semester. It turned out fine, and I'm doing fine grades-wise now and everything is back to normal.
I guess what you'd do kinda depends on how bad you're symptoms are and what is causing it (if anything).
Do they know what it was that caused this?
I'm not your doctor, but it could be just a little depression. That kind of thing happens to be quite a bit. I was pretty depressed almost all of last semester because I was doing pretty badly in classes and I was getting scared that I might have to drop out of college and things because I was going to fail everything that semester. It turned out fine, and I'm doing fine grades-wise now and everything is back to normal.
I guess what you'd do kinda depends on how bad you're symptoms are and what is causing it (if anything).
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I hate to say it but I have noticed the complaining aspect around GTP
I'm trying to stop being angry with everything, it does appear to get worse online though. I guess it's because I've got nobody to make me realise how OTT my reactions are getting. When I'm at home and I start complaining about everything or getting angry, my parents tell me and I'm able to stop it.
I know that 2 summers ago I suffered from depression for a few months but it stopped naturally. This time last year I fell back into a rut again after my ex broke up with me and it took a while for me to recover from that, luckily my friends from work helped a lot.
I'm guessing that I'm getting like it again because it's been a year since all that happened, my anger has gotten out of control at times. Last week I almost got into a fight with a group of about 8 people!
So reading your post was a bit of an eye opener as I've had similar feelings myself before. They've never gotten to the point of affecting me to the extent they did yourself but it's good to see how well someone can recover from such events. 👍
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Courageous post, and props for sharing.
This is the kind of stuff that not long ago would have you removed from society, ostracized by those around you, and/or accused of demonic possession and the exorcist would be called.
My wife drops out of reality about every three years, although the last episode was caught early enough to reduce its severity to "a bad day" by doubling up her medication for a couple of days. She's not suicidal in her episodes, but paranoid delusional, and in fear of her soul. She sees everything as a sign of the Apocalyspe, she knows she's in Hell, and everyone around her is not who they look like, but demons sent to trick her. Completely altered personality and a level of fear that I can only guess at. She's had to spend a couple of days at a time in the hospital, and didn't like it at all. (Unknown experiences on top of the paranoia can't help any, can it?)
Any other time, if you ran into her on the street or met her at a party you'd have no clue.
Down side is that she's almost unemployable because stress factors are a contributor to these episodes starting up, and also that it takes about a quarter of our income to keep the pills coming.
Please keep yourself under good care, CF, and don't fall into the classic "I feel better so I don't need the doctor/medicine/regimen anymore."
You need it until the doctor says you don't.
This is the kind of stuff that not long ago would have you removed from society, ostracized by those around you, and/or accused of demonic possession and the exorcist would be called.
My wife drops out of reality about every three years, although the last episode was caught early enough to reduce its severity to "a bad day" by doubling up her medication for a couple of days. She's not suicidal in her episodes, but paranoid delusional, and in fear of her soul. She sees everything as a sign of the Apocalyspe, she knows she's in Hell, and everyone around her is not who they look like, but demons sent to trick her. Completely altered personality and a level of fear that I can only guess at. She's had to spend a couple of days at a time in the hospital, and didn't like it at all. (Unknown experiences on top of the paranoia can't help any, can it?)
Any other time, if you ran into her on the street or met her at a party you'd have no clue.
Down side is that she's almost unemployable because stress factors are a contributor to these episodes starting up, and also that it takes about a quarter of our income to keep the pills coming.
Please keep yourself under good care, CF, and don't fall into the classic "I feel better so I don't need the doctor/medicine/regimen anymore."
You need it until the doctor says you don't.
boiltheocean
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Thankyou all for the information given. My problem is quite similar to Moglets except my anger is expressed in my thoughts, I've actually thought about beating one of my best friends down to the ground and leaving him there because he said a slightly controversial joke. It was a horrible thought but I couldn't help feeling slightly satisfied with my imagination.
And a special thanks to C_F. If you hadn't posted your story I would still be keeping all of my problems to myself. Telling people does help and I shall now be seeking some proper medical advice.
And a special thanks to C_F. If you hadn't posted your story I would still be keeping all of my problems to myself. Telling people does help and I shall now be seeking some proper medical advice.
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