What happened to ceiling_fan?

[Diego440]

awww.... that's no fun

 

[nk4e]

All new prescriptions must be entered by hand by their pharmacists or techs and received by mail, or a call from a doctor. Actual pharmacists also must fill the refill order. If a physical prescription is not on file then the refill will not be made.

It is easier on the customer side but still convoluted on the back end. The only way I could see a hacker making that happen would be if they managed to fake Rx numbers and doctor info for every member of the site. Even then I imagine that two orders in the pharmacists or techs would notice something was fishy.

There could always be corrupted techs though somehow I don't think that will happen, knowing how much they get paid.

 

[ceiling_fan]

I'm now going to be doing a Partial Hospitalization Program, where you go there from 8am to 3pm and then go home. The first two weeks I go 5 days, the third week 3, and the last week 2.

So I start this tomorrow, should be interesting.

 

[Omnis]

There could always be corrupted techs though somehow I don't think that will happen, knowing how much they get paid.

Yeah, it's highly unlikely. Everyone in that sector uses the free samples direct from the pharmaceuticals. At least internists do. Writing prescriptions is just another hassle. You don't need to go to a pharmacy unless you're getting some hardcore meds (like for chemo) or something.

 

[Touring Mars]

So I start this tomorrow, should be interesting.

Good luck, I hope it goes well 👍

 

[Diego440]

So I start this tomorrow, should be interesting.

What do you do in these? Sit around and zone out, or do you get to play PS3 on the pink chair?

 

[Nicksfix]

do you get to play PS3 on the pink chair?

GOOD LUCK CEILING FAN 👍

 

[G.T]

Wow, dude, sorry this has happened to you...

It has never happened to me near as bad as it has to you, but I know what it's like to get suicidal urges while I was at school a few years ago. It's so hard to fight it sometimes, but there's always that thought that you don't want to put so much strain on your family for doing so...

Hope you get completely better soon. 👍

 

[ceiling_fan]

Good luck, I hope it goes well 👍

It went alright, it's much more structured than the inpatient program. In the IP you could sleep 20 hours a day if you wanted, but in this it's basically just groups all day and is rather exhausting.

What do you do in these? Sit around and zone out, or do you get to play PS3 on the pink chair?

I wish I could play some PS3 in the pink chair, basically it's hospitalization for people who aren't in danger of hurting themselves or others, and can thus go home at night. It's very difficult being without my pink chair.

GOOD LUCK CEILING FAN 👍

THANK YOU

Wow, dude, sorry this has happened to you...

It has never happened to me near as bad as it has to you, but I know what it's like to get suicidal urges while I was at school a few years ago. It's so hard to fight it sometimes, but there's always that thought that you don't want to put so much strain on your family for doing so...

Hope you get completely better soon. 👍

Thanks Jamez, I couldn't say for sure, but I think the main reason I didn't OD the night before being admitted was because family, friends and most of all, GTP would be devastated.

In other news, I'm still wearing my little ID tag on my wrist from when I was an inpatient. All it has is my name and some medical info but I kept it on because it implies I am a badass.

 

[Diego440]

Being that I've been in that same position and have had strong suicidal urges, especially about 3-5 years ago, I can give you one recommendation... which will seem rather stupid:

Get a dog.

It's funny but sometimes when having these urges, what stops you is thinking of how it will affect other people, at least with me. Having a dog that is yours, not 'of the family' makes it even harder to go ahead with it... because the dog depends completely on you and the love dogs have for their masters is much more rewarding...

I'm having a hard time explaining it and I blame lack of caffeine and scarcely practised English, but seriously, having Mishka (my dog, check here or FB) has been vital for me.

 

[ceiling_fan]

I understand completely. 👍 While he isn't entirely mine, he definitely spends a lot of time with me and (Smallhorses can attest to this) gets 'excited' when I'm around. Plus, it's hard not to laugh at Dexter's ugliness (don't say that to his face though! )

Pic is about 4 years old, he has much less energy now

 

[Casio]

That dog must be getting on then, if his eyes were starting to blue 4 years ago.

Dogs are the bomb.

 

[Jump_Ace]

I admit I haven't been around lately, but I read the whole story Dave and I truly had no idea of the battles and wars waged into that far exceed all the battles we have done together at SFGTP's. I truly hope you get better if not just for the principle but for your humor alone that is always spot on and ruins my concentration, lol. I hope the best for you and your family and please let me know if you need to vent or talk, etc. I hope your recent transition is just the downhill run to recovery, may it be quick!

Jerome

 

[ceiling_fan]

Thanks Jerome. I'll still be around to ruin your concentration at SFGTP5

So the partial hospitalization program I'm in is tapering off now, today was my first day off after 2 weeks straight (excluding weekends) and next week I'll only be going twice. So after that point I'll be fixed I'm happy to say I'm doing much better, even if I'm currently on a lot of medication <- each word links to the drug's wiki Of course there's a lot more to it, but the efficacy of meds is more quantifiable I suppose. I just hope nothing like this will happen again. Thanks again (all of you) for your support 👍

I'll be returning to school next month (if I wait any longer they'll drop me, and I'll have to reapply, which of course means I won't be certain if I were to get re-accepted) so I'm excited about that. Go me!

 

[TheCracker]

Glad to see things are on the up for you 👍

 

[Diego440]

Been a long time since I've seen someone excited about going back to school... have fun at it David! 👍

 

[Danoff]

Just read the original post. Sounds really scary man. I really hate being out of control of my own actions. I can't imagine what you must have felt and what you must still be going through as a result.

You're lucky to still be with us.

Perhaps it would help if you viewed coming out of this episode as getting a new lease on life. You might have died. Surely that puts things in perspective and helps you appreciate the little things.

Good luck with it. Sorry that you had to go through that very scary ordeal.

 

[Mrs. Famine]

Apologies for not catching up with this sooner, but it sounds as if you're doing ok now

The human brain is a very strange machine...

Incidentally, I've on several occasions been the member of staff who has been shadowing the inpatient (we call it specialing) and there is a certain skill to not falling asleep yourself when you're spending 8-12 hours watching the patient sleeping...there's only so many magazines I can read in low light and cups of coffee I can drink

 

[ceiling_fan]

Been a long time since I've seen someone excited about going back to school... have fun at it David! 👍

Fair enough, if all goes well I'll get sick of it rather quickly

Glad to see things are on the up for you 👍

ThanksTheCracker👍

Just read the original post. Sounds really scary man. I really hate being out of control of my own actions. I can't imagine what you must have felt and what you must still be going through as a result.

You're lucky to still be with us.

Perhaps it would help if you viewed coming out of this episode as getting a new lease on life. You might have died. Surely that puts things in perspective and helps you appreciate the little things.

Good luck with it. Sorry that you had to go through that very scary ordeal.

Thanks for your words Danoff. The out-of-control thing is just so hard to explain, and I'm not very articulate in the first place (hence the awful analogies...) The only way I can put it in concrete terms would be 'Involuntary suicide attempt/Involuntary self-harm.' But involuntary isn't a good way to put it, I didn't want to do it but I ... ugh, see what I mean?

Apologies for not catching up with this sooner, but it sounds as if you're doing ok now

The human brain is a very strange machine...

Incidentally, I've on several occasions been the member of staff who has been shadowing the inpatient (we call it specialing) and there is a certain skill to not falling asleep yourself when you're spending 8-12 hours watching the patient sleeping...there's only so many magazines I can read in low light and cups of coffee I can drink

Yeah, sitting in a chair watching someone sleep sounds like one of the most boring jobs ever. Of course it gets a little more exciting if you follow them around all day, but still... I asked one of my shadows how much they get paid, he said around $12/hr. I wonder what the qualifications are, one of my shadows was my age (19) which isn't pretty bad. Probably not the best line of work for me to get into though Thanks for your words though.

 

[Rykon Zero]

Hey, at least you always have someone to talk to. I'd be happy just for that.

Hope you're felling better, now.

 

[ceiling_fan]

Well today I may be going back in the hospital.

I started having more of these episodes (one each on Monday Tuesday and Wednesday, and two on Saturday.) I didn't harm myself but I feel "lucky" that each time these happened I was either in the presence of doctors or friends, and just seeing them can sort of snap me out of it. The unpredictability of the episodes (no triggers or correlation I'm aware of) and the amount of time I spend alone is worrisome to the doctors and myself. I'm really really trying to avoid going back into the hospital, but it would be understandable if they determine it would be in my best interest

The worst part about all of this is that my mood in general has been much better and now I feel like I'm relapsing before I've even finished recovering And now I'm going to miss my April 13 return date to school, which means I'll be withdrawn

I just wanted to fill you guys in on what's happening, and not worry anyone if I suddenly dissappear from these forums. I might be able to read responses later today but I can't guarantee anything.

Regards, c_f.

 

[Prosthetic]

Good luck dude

 

[Scaff]

Best wishes - do what you need to get yourself sorted, we will be here when you get back.

Regards

Scaff

 

[TheCracker]

Sorry to hear about your most recent predicament David. It does, however, sound like just a bit of a step back on your road to recovery not a total relapse. You've mentioned that your general mood has been more upbeat lately which to me sounds like something to be very positive about. 👍

 

[Duke]

GTP will still be here. School will still be there. Don't worry, everything will wait for you to come back to it. Good luck getting things where they should be.

 

[Touring Mars]

Good luck and best wishes, David - keep us posted when you can...

 

[kikie]

Good luck C F. Take care and get well soon.

I know exactly what you're going through!

 

[nk4e]

Godspeed man, there will always be a few speed bumps on your road to recover and get well soon.

 

[Solid Lifters]

Hang tough, bro! Don't give in! Keep fighting and stop worrying. Your friends, school and your life will be there when you get things sorted out. 👍

Best of luck, cf.

 

[FoolKiller]

Good luck with this, man. If you have to go back in it is for the best.

So, is it safe to assume the medicine isn't working like it should?