So, I don't know how to frame this post exactly, but...I have anxiety of some sort. Not really depressed, although I wish I was doing better.
Let's just say, I feel like I don't belong. GTPlanet is the only forum I visit, otherwise it's just Discord and the few friends I have there. No IRL friends to connect with. I find it extremely tough to try and join new communities, and because of past experiences, dating back 10 years, I'm always hesitant to do so. Even if the community itself is nice and is welcoming, I might feel like I'm not a part of it.
I also don't have a favourite YouTuber/streamer to connect with either, so I'm ultimately just a lone wolf in every sense of the word. I am introverted in real life, but online it's naturally easier to connect and open up, but I've begun to shelter myself more and more. For me it's also imperative to have plenty in common to properly connect, which makes it all the more tougher (yes, I am on the spectrum).
Figured I would post here as a way to vent, didn't wanna keep it bottled up. I've been thinking about saying something, but I didn't feel the need to, until now. Oh, and despite me registering in 2015, I didn't actually start actively visiting until GT7 came out. I also haven't connected with anyone here, not really, but I should probably keep an eye on The Rumble Strip from here on.
That's about all I can think of (without writing a life story). Thanks for reading.
I wouldn't mind racing in GT7, but that requires PS+, and due to generally only being able to support myself with the money I have, I'm not prepared to subscribe, especially when it would only be for one game. Thanks Sony for raising the prices, too! I have not looked into GTPlanet's offerings yet, as I'm not sure if there would be any league/community that would be the one for me. Even then, pay to play. 🤷♂️
Hi. How are you feeling now? I hope you're in a better place than when you posted this.
It takes so much to make a post like yours and I hope it has empowered you. This thread is full of people who try to be there when needed. Well done for feeling able to speak out.
With the all too sad passing of John last weekend, it's very important that everyone remembers and continues John's sage wisdom, and that we all together take on John's mantle going forward.
Remember always, don't let depression and/or anxiety win.
@JohnBM01 passing away has hit me as hard as it did when Steve (@FoolKiller) passed away.
John always sent me messages to wish me a happy birthday, when the Oakland Golden Grizzlies won, when any Detroit sports team did well, when I got a new car, and even when my son was born. I always looked forward to his sports write-ups since he always tried to include something about the regular contributor's favorite teams.
It's weird. I never met him in person, only ever chatted with him online, but he was definitely a friend and I miss him. I was happy to see in his goodbye thread that so many other people saw John's kind, caring, positive attitude. That's the kind of mark you typically hope to leave and one that, for a time at least, carries on your memory.
