I finally had an epiphany last night. Despite having nothing but trouble on my pad with the A45, I took out the Ruf RGT8 on Cadwell park. Having never been on it, the 991 flowed so well, especially once the tyres were warm. Having been so impressed by the physics I took the E92 M3 out for a race on Donny. In the rain to boot. I was holding my own in 5th, until I messed up and ended up in last. Just like everyone else I've seen on here, finishing last doesn't hurt so much when you enjoy yourself.
No more will racing be a means to an end and through patience I've finally seen the light.