Dan Wheldon was one of the good ones. Always level headed, a true racer, you never ha to worry about Dan Wheldon. Just before the races I was think how excited I was to cheer for Andretti Autosport next year, with Marco Andretti, Mike Conway, Ryan Hunter-Reay, and of course Dan Wheldon.
With all the success they would have coming and so many of my favorite drivers in one place. I was so hoping for Sam Schmit Motorsports to get a win, and now with Dan Wheldon gunning for 5 million it was going to be fun. Dan Wheldon stuck with it when he couldn't get a ride, and when he won the Indy 500 this year it was just something else, with Bryan Herta Autosport in the one-off under dog upset. I couldn't get the smile off my face with 2012 coming and a great race to look forward to. However I haven't smiled since lap 10 of today's race, as I watched great side-by-side action and one Dan Wheldon picking up 10 spots from the back of the field already.
When it happened, right from the second they switched out of Dan Wheldon's onboard to show the wreck from a better angle as it happened, it looked like one big swirling cloud of death. As they has switched out if his car I saw it enter the right of the screen and I watched in terror as Wheldon's car was thrown airborne into that cloud of death. I tried my best to follow it with my eyes, also seeing more airborne out of the corner of my eyes, and the smoke made it hard but I saw it hit by the catch fence and I saw a fireball. I didn't know who it was as it seemed like Wheldon could have been any of 5 other cars involved throughout the mayhem. We saw the replays from Dario's car looking back and it was as if he was looking back at Hell he had just narrowly escaped. We saw the onboard from Will Power's car and it was like being hurled straight into Hell. Then there was the tarp.... the yellow tarp covering a car. The last time I witnessed a yellow tarp covering a car it was Dale Earnhardt. Then I saw the shot where the sidepod was showing under the tarp and I saw the Bowers & Wilkins / Magnolia logo. I saw very quickly how flat that car was under the tarp, and I realized the entire airbox / roll hoop area was missing and that it was leveled to the top of the sidepods. It was clearly bad and the it was most likely fatal but I never really accepted anything other then it was a bad wreck, even though it looked most likely fatal. It was a matter if death or a recoverable injury like Mike Conway's injuries from Indy a year earlier, but I never really accepted that it could be death.
I in time came to realized that if he survived, now thinking if, he wouldn't be able to race again. I thought of car owner Sam Schmit and how something like that happened to him. But then when the drivers where released and I saw Tony Kanaan sit on his pit wall, I knew from his face this was really, really bad. The look on Tony Kanaan's face just said it all, but I still hadn't had it register yet. Then when Randy walked was at the podium I was about to burst out in tears as they had joined late and Randy said "in tribute of Dan Wheldon". Then the commentators said they could confirm that Dan Wheldon had been killed from the crash and I broke out in tears and cried for a long time and couldn't stop myself. As the hard core racer I have been my whole life this was a time I will never forget. When Dale died I was still too young to really get it, and when Paul Dana died I wasn't into indycar yet, at that time I only watched the Indy 500 and occasionally another race but wasn't following it close. This was the first time I was exposed to a death in a race, and I always expect the day would come but never really thought it would. And it wasn't just anybody, it was surreally Dan Wheldon, not any racer but somebody like Dan Wheldon.
It was unwordable and now that I stopped crying it seems like it didn't happen, I'm numb, but Dan Wheldon is dead. Dan Wheldon is dead and I don't know when I will finally realize it or accept it. He was the truest of true racers and he couldn't be missed more.
Until we meet again, goodbye Dan Wheldon. Always a champ.