Depression and Anxiety Thread

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W3HS
Sorry to hear of your Ma’s passing @ildd, it must be a tough time for you and your family.

With regards to what you suspect as a suicide, have you ever heard of “the call of the void”? It’s a phenomenon that can occur with anyone, the phrase is a translation from French.

A close friend of mine and myself have discussed it at length as it’s happened to us numerous times, although we’ve both been suicidal in the past, it’s maybe something you could look up.

As for feeling suicidal yourself, I’m probably the wrong person to give advice as my few attempts have been passive and obviously unsuccessful, but wait out the day and see if tomorrow you still feel the same. I’ve used this practice to keep myself from relapsing on the booze and it’s about the best advice I can give from my perspective.

Anyhow, keep strong and vent here if you need to. Sometimes it helps to have the sympathetic ear of strangers.
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Yes. I first heard of it from a video a couple years ago and discussed it with a friend a month ago, under different circumstances. I appreciate the words.
 
Found this video rather helpful in identifying some of my issues. Mainly losing contact with friends and believing everyone out there is against me....
 
I have always had this feeling/thought that my mental/psychological problems are partially caused by the amalgam in my teeth.
 
Despite getting a new job that has so far treated me a little better than the last, I still feel miserable. The job has at least been keeping me busy.

I can't shake the feeling that I'm a miserable person who unintentionally brings people around myself down. Whether it's friends, family, or even strangers, I always seem to make them angry. Of course it's only my interpretation of how they feel.

I feel like I'm full of regrets and they just keep piling up. Today especially when I snapped at my neighbor, only for me to end up sounding like the 🤬 Feels like everything I do ends up biting me back even harder. Makes me want to disappear from the world....
 
MedigoFlame
Despite getting a new job that has so far treated me a little better than the last, I still feel miserable. The job has at least been keeping me busy.

I can't shake the feeling that I'm a miserable person who unintentionally brings people around myself down. Whether it's friends, family, or even strangers, I always seem to make them angry. Of course it's only my interpretation of how they feel.

I feel like I'm full of regrets and they just keep piling up. Today especially when I snapped at my neighbor, only for me to end up sounding like the 🤬 Feels like everything I do ends up biting me back even harder. Makes me want to disappear from the world....
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It sounds to me like your lack of enthusiasm for yourself reflects in every corner, and you may just worry about disappointing people who don't deserve to be appeased. You may need to look inside for any consistencies that lead to those regrets. Don't think about how it effects them or yourself, just think about the sequence of events. What lead you to lash, or them to lash, or feel anger. Sometimes you may find that a conflict is not so much a conflict as a miscommunication. And if the result is that it's not a miscommunication, but someone wanting bad for you but good for themselves, why regret? And if they don't want bad for you, and you don't want bad for them, surely it's just a miscommunication. After all, it's not your intention to hurt or bring people down, meaning you're not a bad person.
 
Skython
It sounds to me like your lack of enthusiasm for yourself reflects in every corner, and you may just worry about disappointing people who don't deserve to be appeased. You may need to look inside for any consistencies that lead to those regrets. Don't think about how it effects them or yourself, just think about the sequence of events. What lead you to lash, or them to lash, or feel anger. Sometimes you may find that a conflict is not so much a conflict as a miscommunication. And if the result is that it's not a miscommunication, but someone wanting bad for you but good for themselves, why regret? And if they don't want bad for you, and you don't want bad for them, surely it's just a miscommunication. After all, it's not your intention to hurt or bring people down, meaning you're not a bad person.
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This is a good observation.

I’ve found that a lot of people who others say are grumpy or ill-tempered are fine with me because I just don’t see them that way and look past that, knowing that most people have a lighter side and my attitude towards them seems to bring it out.

This is especially true of some middle management types who feel they need to act a certain way to command respect but in truth if they’re seen as a human being and not some high and mighty wrath bringer they can be just as humble and friendly as the next person.

I think a lot of the way people appear is based on our own perception of them and how we view them, rather than how they really are.
 
I think an important thing in regards to helping out your depressed state is having a support system. To some people, the depressed persons themselves ARE their support system. It does, though, help to have other people within arms reach or perhaps via phone lines or cyberspace to assist you in times of need. So try to look to other people to help you with your depression if you can find others to help you.
 
You think someone who is not friend, gf/bf, husband/wife, family would actually listen to someone moaning all the time.. Maybe once.. Maybe the person is polite and would listen eveytime but he/she would hate it.. Even close people to you can't understand you and you can't understand someone else with their problems.. People need to know that they are alone and that only you can fight your own demons.
 
nostradavor2
You think someone who is not friend, gf/bf, husband/wife, family would actually listen to someone moaning all the time.. Maybe once.. Maybe the person is polite and would listen eveytime but he/she would hate it.. Even close people to you can't understand you and you can't understand someone else with their problems.. People need to know that they are alone and that only you can fight your own demons.
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Bollocks.

There are people out there who will listen, and will try to help even if they have no interest in an individual. It isn't everyone, and it won't always help, but even a stranger can make a difference.
 
MatskiMonk
Bollocks.

There are people out there who will listen, and will try to help even if they have no interest in an individual. It isn't everyone, and it won't always help, but even a stranger can make a difference.
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Stranger can make a difference... But it can make a difference in sense that if u see pretty girl outside, she smiles at you.. Or if you have some random great talks while doing things like walking a dog or something.. If you aproach someone with your depression talo, all you can get is like support because they pity you... If that's something you like than we aren't on the same page.. Also the people who decide to volunteer in cases of depression or something like that are doing that to feel better about themselves or maybe someone from theor life experience had horrible problems with mental health..
 
nostradavor2
Stranger can make a difference... But it can make a difference in sense that if u see pretty girl outside, she smiles at you.. Or if you have some random great talks while doing things like walking a dog or something.. If you aproach someone with your depression talo, all you can get is like support because they pity you... If that's something you like than we aren't on the same page.. Also the people who decide to volunteer in cases of depression or something like that are doing that to feel better about themselves or maybe someone from theor life experience had horrible problems with mental health..
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Sorry but this is rubbish, and it demonstrates a very close minded view towards what people feel about their own depression or that of others. I've sat, with my own blood on my hands, a razor still clenched in my fingers, several times... I know why I did it, and what it did for me... I don't pity those strangers facing the same situation, I often just wish they could see things from a different perspective. I've not 'volunteered' officially, but I have offered my perspective to strangers in an effort to help them, and I have been told by multiple people it made a difference. Feeling better about myself, sure, that does happen, but that's not why I did it. Any relatively compassionate person doesn't want to see people enduring personal anguish if they've been there themselves, especially if they feel they can help.

If you suffer from depression, and this is your attitude, I think you are making life hard for yourself.
 
Oh that's the thing I forgot to mention, only other people with depression can actually listen to you every time.. But those people can't help because you are both in the same boat and can only depress each other more long term..

I don't think I really suffer from depression but I suffered from many things in life which made me destructive and auto destructive ..

People should look for positive people, be outside and do something creative.. Modern lifestyle is not natural for human beings
 
nostradavor2
I suffered from many things in life which made me destructive and auto destructive ..
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Having just read your post in the relationship depression I can see this definitely being the case. It seems you embrace it though, and you want to push away anyone that could make a difference. If you can't let yourself trust someone, or trust their interest in your well-being, you will find it virtually impossible to get a true perspective on things - and with only your own... well, that will never end well, if you know you are self-destructive and still allow that to control your viewpoint on things. There is no heroism in self destruction.
 
I don't know mate.. I was in relationships with really nice and beautiful girls which fulfilled me mostly.. I have experience in that department and I don't want to get to much carried away to write more details because don't want people to judge me ho hasn't tried and seen that much...

And firstly I don't think there is any heroism in self destruction .. Why would you think that I think so?

Other thing is that I don't plan to spend time alone rest of my life, I just got to know women and you can have great relationship if you are careful and learn some things because some patterns of behavior are there with all girls in relationships/marriages ..

I think you just got me wrong.. Also I really love women.. They are like in my top 3 favourite things in the world but lifw is not Disney movie
 
My mood has taken a nose dive over recent days. Meds don’t seem to be doing what they should.

I’m sure I know the reason but can’t find a way of addressing it because it’s largely paranoia and delusion on my part.

Roll on the weekend when I can fill myself full of booze and ignore reality.
 
W3HS
My mood has taken a nose dive over recent days. Meds don’t seem to be doing what they should.

I’m sure I know the reason but can’t find a way of addressing it because it’s largely paranoia and delusion on my part.

Roll on the weekend when I can fill myself full of booze and ignore reality.
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💡
 
HenrySwanson
For one evening's drinking?

That is worrying especially for a female. Can you explain more about the reason or are not comfortable doing so?
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Yeah, that’s a pretty light night to be honest. I ended up getting 3 more later in the evening so it was 8 total. I’m not a regular drinker these days after spending the last year trying to get sober but I do binge drink.

The reason is that I’m an alcoholic who loves the escape from reality. Simple as that really.

Also, I haven’t been a female since axletramp put me on a beer bottle.
 
W3HS
Yeah, that’s a pretty light night to be honest. I ended up getting 3 more later in the evening so it was 8 total. I’m not a regular drinker these days after spending the last year trying to get sober but I do binge drink.

The reason is that I’m an alcoholic who loves the escape from reality. Simple as that really.

Also, I haven’t been a female since axletramp put me on a beer bottle.
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Sorry clicked on your name and saw "Female" on the description

Have the meds suddenly stopped working or have you noticed it for a while now?
 
HenrySwanson
Sorry clicked on your name and saw "Female" on the description
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:lol: I've been waiting about 5 years for that subtle bit of trolling to pay off.

HenrySwanson
Have the meds suddenly stopped working or have you noticed it for a while now?
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I wouldn't say they stop working exactly, but in conjunction with alcohol they temporarily decrease in effectiveness. When they aren't doing their job I loss motivation, productivity takes a huge hit and I'm plagued by invasive thoughts akin to paranoia.
When I'm sober and the meds are working I can only compare it to a mix of NTZ-48, Soma and intervals of Prozium (one for all the sci-fi fans out there). The catch is that I have been in a rather unsuccessful battle against alcohol abuse for the last 15 or so years.
 
I want to go to Austria. I have tried to go to Austria this entire winter but something is holding me back ( = probably anxiety).
Strange that my brain doesn't want me to go on vacation. :guilty:
 
W3HS
:lol: I've been waiting about 5 years for that subtle bit of trolling to pay off.
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Damnit!

W3HS
I wouldn't say they stop working exactly, but in conjunction with alcohol they temporarily decrease in effectiveness. When they aren't doing their job I loss motivation, productivity takes a huge hit and I'm plagued by invasive thoughts akin to paranoia.
When I'm sober and the meds are working I can only compare it to a mix of NTZ-48, Soma and intervals of Prozium (one for all the sci-fi fans out there). The catch is that I have been in a rather unsuccessful battle against alcohol abuse for the last 15 or so years.
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These invasive thoughts - have they come up with a diagnosis for that?

kikie
I want to go to Austria. I have tried to go to Austria this entire winter but something is holding me back ( = probably anxiety).
Strange that my brain doesn't want me to go on vacation. :guilty:
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What's stopping you? (I realise that might be a redundant question)
 

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